I have had a continuing problem with sleep since as far as i can remember.... as a very young child i used to be able to crawl under my blanket and find stairs at the bottom of my bed leading to an underground world, which was how i used to sleep... as i got older my logical mind kinda made me think "this isnt a real world" and since that day, falling asleep has been a constant struggle!
mind racing, heart beat, pillow on ears, external noises, smells, lights (and sometimes lack of.. those weird goddam flashing colours behind your eyes when no light is outside....), movement of GF's, movement of me, to much blocking my of breathing and air flow, hair making noise or not sitting right, car lights etc etc etc etc etc etc.... god forbid i become aware of my breathing and/or throat/mouth/nose/hand/eye/etc etc...!
meditation before bed was fantastic... self hypnosis was fantastic.... but when it was new, it was interesting.. since i have no interest anymore, and "CAN" do it, i now CANT do it through lack of concentration as i have no interest in the subject/concept anymore...! CrAzY or what!
the only thing that works for me is knock out drugs but highly addictive... Zimovane(zopiclone) 7.5mg x (more than prescribed dosage!) apparently doctors are prescribing GHB or chloroform to severe sufferers now (UK) but that has to be severe i think.....
my body seems to be on a 30 hour cycle... 20-22 hours awake to 8-10 hours asleep! and that is without drugs or medicines... only getting prescribed 28 sleeping pills per 2-3 months and having to use them in 10-14 days to hopefully get some "normality" to my cycle again and feel "normal" inside... although reducing the dose and taking them with warm fluids on an empty stomach means they sometimes last longer, it is incredibly unhealthy! and considering i am anti-medications, it defeats my moralistic standing from the start! but what choice do i have... live with constant headaches, my body stealing "mini-naps"(they last from 0.0001 seconds to .1 of a second i think....) and quite frankly, taking medications far outways the feeling of detachment i feel when not sleeping correctly...