prillix wrote:
This is one thing that has stuck out with me for a long time now.
Back when i was in 3rd grade, the teacher gave the class an assignment, it was a very simple one, Draw on a page what you want to be when you grow up. Everybody had their own dreams, one guy wanted to be a DJ, someone else wanted to be a doctor and another a firefighter. I on the other hand, well i didn't have a f*ckin clue. In the end the teacher even called my parents cause i "Refused" to do the work. in the end i ended up just drawing what my dad does for a living, Ive never let this down.
A few years before that i had a similar task given to me in art class. "Draw your most exciting dream". Of course, i couldn't do it. everybody else was blasting ahead on their dreams, while there i was, unable to figure it out. In the end the teacher gave me a suggestion and i went with it, i drew a picture of me Skydiving. Now to this day, the only dream i DO have, is my unrelentless need to go skydiving. (Funny thing is, this work was a drawing contest for the whole province i believe, and i somehow managed to win, i won a Tshirt and something else i forget)
Im now 23, i live by myself, and Ive had many many jobs ranging from computers, to woodworking, to a lot of other things, and even now, i don't have any ambition, i don't know what i want to do mainly cause Ive never really wanted to do anything.
Can anybody shed some light on this for me?
Your claim about how everyone else knew what they wanted to be, etc... is BULL! It is an illusion! If ANYONE claimed anything, it was a fantasy based on a fantasy based on some kids dumb idea of what it was.
When I was in the FIRST grade, and probably younger, I KNEW I wanted to be an electronic engineer! I STUDIED to be one! Even the ASVAB I took when I was in the 10th grade showed I knew MORE about electricity and machinery than MANY in the 14th grade(sophomores in COLLEGE)! The whole time, it seemed like almost all others were interested in some stupid extracurricular school activity, some TOTAL fantasy, or NOTHING! I knew people that wanted to be superheros, police, firemen, sports figures, politicians, artists, millionaires, etc.... They spoke like they could merely desire it. EVEN being a policeman or fireman was far harder then.
As for me, I decided to switch my goal to computers around 1980. Computers were starting to take off, and electronics was getting more complicated. Being so well versed in electronics helped me a lot with computers.
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