richardbenson wrote:
i hate being an alcoholic! it was cool at first but now i cant seem to stop, the only way i can stop myself is if i spend all my money really fast. that way i wont have any money to buy beer god
I do have sympathy/compassion for those who have addictive disorders. I do not have but being HFA might be why I feel for those who struggle within themselves due to 'Pervasive Problem X'. rb: I've always always liked your personality and sense of humor! I cannot 'read' humans but I do look at what they write. I've read your posts for quite some time, of course, and you're a regular on this Planet. I can tell when you're not you're not in that true richardbenson mode, which means you're drinking. This is so sad.....I know you can stop!
I saw a t-shirt that read, "Autism. It isn't for sissies." Well, yes. We are strong from necessity. But I hope you can feel better and stop so the consumation doesn't consume you. You have much to offer and in some ways I think you then have an obligtion to give of your mind. Alcohol seems to cheat you. And your bank account!
About alcohol itself, and how it acts: Duality; at once a depressant but shuts off inhibitions, which might be why some Aspies feel it makes their AS less apparent. Those on the spectrum have a different circadian cycle with notable sleep differences. Those who drink alcohol sometimes say it helps them fall asleep more easily. It does.....except it erodes the quality of sleep and our kind, more than any NT, need this quality sleep. The deficit effects every other realm of functioning.
So whilst alcohol is a depressant it also acts to increase anxiety. Hence problems.
I don't have addictive disorder but I do obsess over certain things and this can consume me. I have to be careful in this, and I'm lousy at doing it! But I hope you can feel better, rb. I feel....loss (?) when I read your posts aren't you, but the alcohol. You're so much better than the alcohol!
In Alaska and extreme northern regions, such as Siberia, etc. alcoholism is rampant. Alaska has become more conscientious of this since we have a miserable track record as far as alcohol-related problem. Many in villages will become intoxicated to oblivion, then freeze to death! This happens in Fairbanks too. Scary! Some have suffered severe frostbite from being drunk - disaster. And homelessness, poverty cycle. Alcohol is literally destroying their beautiful Native culture! I hope Aspies don't fall into this for these reasons.
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The ones who say “You can’t” and “You won’t” are probably the ones scared that you will. - Unknown