I think I have McDD

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I'm still around, thanks.

Anyway since I find posted in this thread, I'm still confused. I did have psychosis twice during severe mood episodes, and maybe very mild psychosis outside of that (they considered me wondering if people could read my mind psychosis, even though I was functioning normally then)

One difference is that my therapist, who actually specializes in children, thinks I do have enough Autism Spectrum traits to qualify. My psychiatrist however thinks that I am just schizoaffective with OCD.

My docs however want me to stop trying to diagnose myself.

I was supposed to have McDD. The criteria of that condition are really different. I think that McDD usually looks like an ASD (which gives "social ineptitude" and "obsessiveness") with more bizarre symptoms in emotional and thinking area. I was told by someone with ASD that I look like a kook for that person. I had magical thinking since about 7 years old. My fantasies were very bizarre, some of them were grandiose and wacky. I have severe physical and existential anxienty. I am obsessively, involuntarily suspicious. Some symptoms were repulsive. I think that it is a mild form of McDD. I have AS diagnosis. I am so bizarre and sometimes feel like (mentally) challenged person.

Despite the disorders I am scholastically talented. I have severe interest in people who are "similar to me". I am somewhat obsessively worried that I just have a "social NLD" (I think that NLD name for a social-emotional-behavioral disorder (SEB) is "despicable", I named relatively mild PDDs and similar conditions as "aucorigias" (aucorigia - neologism from "autocontrast" and originality" which suggests asynchronous development and bizarrity). I heard one time (nearly 6 years ago) that I had a bookish case of OCD. But my "obsessions" were strange - many magical thinking, which can occur even now (but I reject it).

Asburger King Syndrome vs McDD!

Lol!

Most mental patients I've met are very NT acting.

But I knew someone who might be at the crossroad of schzophrenia street and autism avenue. And young lady who grew up in and out mental institurions- had schzo behavior- but was also a very obsessed aspie type ( she was obsessed with dogs for example). But she is now married with a kid and a great job.

I also meet in the Internet a woman who has a child and job and appears to have McDD few days ago... Hmm... And McDD is strongly asscociated with McDonald's in my thinking...

McDD appears to be the "weirder" version of ASD. I am interested in it and it appears to be the condition with more different anomalies than "typical" ASD. Someone with McDD appear to be more "atypical" than classic Aspie. My symptoms does not pass to "just NT" or "just NLD", but are also less severe than in "classic AS" or in "classic McDD".

Does anyone know a person with McDD?

Having the head was the source of shame to me. Head was "ugly" to me. It was "idiosyncratic thinking". It is weird, may be hard to describe.

I have fantasies about being black, headless, very powerful being composed from spiky triangles named Megamon. I even prayed (maybe with arithmomania) to be it. It was McDDish and fruitcakish in my opinion. I was nutty when I was younger. I have a hope that anyone has such a symptoms because they are seriously kooky. It is some sort of illness in my opinion.

This is a picture of something like Megamon:



And it is an example of outlaw art made by a person with paranod schizophrena:



Some infromations about Megamon:

- fully black (I liked it, why? I do not was a satanist)
- composed only from spiky traingles, because rounder shapes were less attractive to me
- tailed being (but buttockless - having buttocks ws shameful for me)
- headless being (having head was shameful for me)
- a being which is very powerful, has special powers, in some way similar to "omnipotence", it is a result of grandiose fantasies
- the basis of it was the anime Digimon (digimons had the names with ending -mon); i fantasied a lot about Digimon in somewhat strange way
- I prayed to became Megamon (text in Polish: "żebym stał się Megamonem"); maybe there was also OCDish arithmomania in this prayer (maybe even it was magcal OCD (without insight?)) - counting to 64 because it is 2*2*2*2*2*2; I have magical obsessive-compulsive weird behaviors

It may look very McDDish, even be a "bookish" example of a symptom of this PDD. This disorder has onset in childhood. Magical thinking, blatantly bizarre ideas, idosyncratic logic, grandiose fantasies or fantasies of special powers/omnipotence are McDDish traits, but are not necessary for autism. About being 16 years old I developed strange "suspiciousness".