Whats your most recent ASD moment?

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Got a phone call from my Mom while in the throes of what I thought was a brilliant stretch of music composition and was so irked and disoriented by having snapped out of that mental state, I tossed the whole recording and deleted the lyrics. I do this all the time whenever I'm yanked out of a state of creativity.

I was totally zoned out and stressed this morning because I had to leave the house and run errands for the first time in weeks. I was looking for comfort here and accidentally posted in the wrong place. Somehow I was thinking I was posting in general discussion. Instead I posted in the love and dating section. I am so embarrassed.
No more posting while on the fringes of a shutdown/meltdown.
Thankfully my husband has a sense of humor. I hope the people in that forum section accept my apology. I think I need a "crawling in a hole because of humiliation" smiley.

I was buying a very small article of clothing at a department store and told the cashier I didn't need a bag for it when she started to grab one. She didn't believe me and asked me two more times throughout the transaction just to make sure (I said no every time) and then finally at the end of it, she puts it in a bag for me "just in case". I thought she was just being really rude, but my husband seemed to think there was something unsure about the way I was responding to her that made her think I really wanted a bag (I 100% did not want the damn bag).

I'm not sure how it is elsewhere, but some libraries around here have recently abandoned the Dewey Decimal System in favour of vague grouping. The books still have their classification, but they'll put them with other books sort of related. You don't get a nice progressing 001 to 999 arrangement. It's some sort of experimental cut up/free association version of library management.

A few weeks back I went looking for a particular book on Asperger's - the irony didn't escape me. Was it in Mental Health? Psychology? Health? Relationships? Family Health? Nope. Wondering if someone had a wry sense of humour, I even checked under Railways. This took me about forty minutes, wandering from section to section, going over and over the books, becoming increasingly distressed. I had to give up, on the verge of a shutdown (or even meltdown), though by now I'd become fixated on getting the book - it was part of my plan for the day, to go to that library (an hour's bus trip) and get that book. In the end I took another hour's bus trip to the next library that had a copy - luckily it was easy to find there.

Oh, wow. That sounds like an awful day. I don't know what I would do if I found out my library did away with Dewey Decimal (so far, so good, around here. Though my local library is small and I have to order most books I want from further-away libraries, anyway.) However, I hope you're not offended that I laughed really hard when you said, "Wondering if someone had a wry sense of humour, I even checked under Railways." Lol! In a way, I'm glad nobody put it there. In another way, though, it would have at least solved your problem if you found it there. So much trouble for one book! Without a set system, how does your library manage? Does your library offer computers that you can search for books through? The ones I've been to do that, but they still give you a Dewey Decimal number so you can search the shelves yourself and find it.

My most recent ASD moment was the other day, when I finally realized that taking college classes (which I have never done before), involves having classmates. Somehow, before that moment, I was imagining my education occurring in a sort of classmate-less bubble, with just me, the teacher, and my classwork. It's been five years since I was in school, after all. I don't have anybody guiding me and informing me of what these classes will entail. I was all ready to tackle college, but suddenly remembering that I WILL have to talk with classmates and probably do group projects, I'm nervous all over again. I know there's something I physically do, some kind of "vibe" I give off, maybe, that keeps people away from me. I just don't know what it is. I can't see myself from another's point of view. Even seeing myself on video doesn't tell me what I'm doing differently. Yet, very few people ever invited me to do things in high school or in my workplaces. This worry has me suddenly remembering it. Considering I don't know WHAT it is that I do that pushes people away, I don't know how to get around it and maybe get to know some of my new classmates this coming semester. So maybe this isn't an ASD "moment", but just an overall concern related to Asperger's...

My most recent one would probably be the major meltdown I had last night.

having trouble interpreting a form because i'm interpreting things literally and don't understand what they mean because i feel that they have phrased things too vaguely. i'm interpreting it a few different ways.

One of my famous WP meltdowns.

Messing up my application for health insurance because I was terrified of the paperwork. Missed the deadline by two weeks when I finally worked up the nerve to open it. Had to start the process all over again.

Yup. This is something I really have trouble getting my head around. My brother had the same conversation with me recently after a friend of mine confided in him that she felt I was ignoring her. I wasn't. I just didn't have anything to say and no money to go out for a few drinks, so in my mind I was like "well what's the point in making contact if I have nothing to say?"
Other recent ASD moments
Joining this forum and not joining in any discussions as I had nothing "new" to add

And today, the woman beside me in the library had a small baby, It started screaming and I visibly winced. I couldn't help it. It was screaming right in my ear. I can't bear really loud noises

About a month ago, my sister (NT) asked if anyone had a code she could have and she'd buy them a cookie. I said yes and said that if she receives a text from an unknown number (I have 2 mobiles) it's me.

I hardly see my sister. Today, I asked her if I could have this cookie she owes me. It turns out she was joking.

In my religious studies class, my professor was trying to give us an example of a miracle explaining phenomena. She asked what would be our reaction if she told us that just before people started coming into the classroom, there were purple pigs with gold wings flying around the room? Then she said if anyone believed that, she had some ocean-front property to sell in Arizona. Like the literalist I am, I blurted out, "Arizona's nowhere near an ocean!" She said she was being sarcastic and I sunk in my seat as I realized my mistake. Oops.

Yeah, I hate those kinds of "jokes". I just take most promises with a lot of salt now. But then people ask "why are you so cynical? why don't you just trust what people say?"

Really, the tactful thing to do on her part would have been to just buy you a cookie when she realised you were seriously expecting one, even if she was joking. I mean, how hard would that be? Then make a note for the future to be careful what she promises, at least to you. That's what I would have done.

In the middle of a relationship discussion with my boyfriend, I'd been stimming the whole time because it was awkward as heck. He didn't do anything wrong really, he just wanted answers involving emotions I just couldn't fathom. I should have ended it before this, but I didn't. I hit overload and literally ran away and cried. Then couldn't look him in the face for a day and half, which is awkward since we live together.

I would have said the same thing if I were you lol.

Not knowing anything about famous people that are regularly on the telly.