Whats your most recent ASD moment?

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Almost going into meltdown yesterday when the judge of tomorrow's rat show pulled out - two days before the show! Amazingly, I managed not to harm and eventually fixed another judge. although it means a lower status for the show.

My most recent AS experience is right now. I'm going through a crisis on how I'm going to cope with going back to college next week. The whole anticipation is freaking me out.

a new person was at youthgroup today and i said hi and then i didnt know if i was supposed to talk to him so i just stared at him and apologised and pulled at my hair. for a long time. while i was staring at him i wasnt making eye contact either. awesome social skills.

The other week I was at a festival and someone had put up a bunch of signs for an AS/Autiism 'meet friends'. Of course, I completely failed to get there - due to ambiguous destinations ('Meet at the tiny tea tent'.. which one? There are two!) and the major problem that I didn't actually know anyone there so unless there was a big sign in neon pointing to the correct table (there wasn't ) it was a nonstarter really.

What actually happened was I hovered around for a few minutes, then left.

i went into a speaking boom when someone said something. i can not remember what they said, but i steam rolled them with my observations about the difficulties of topographical surveillance required to plot a route through the mountains with always a less than 4 degrees of inclination for the train line and also not excessively recursive.
the person who i spoke at was looking frazzled when i finally stopped talking and paid attention to him.

i guess he did not care very much.

Spent the entire day at work fidgeting with a stim toy (an artist's eraser) because I could not bear to stand still while a coworker was adjusting and fixing an instrument. It wasn't completely noticeable how much I was playing with it (mostly because it was a dark room), but yeah, they noticed I had the toy.

flat out ignored a professor I have a huge crush on and passed in the hallway like, 3 times in 20 minutes. the third time I was sitting on the floor reading my kindle rocking back and forth a bit because I heard his voice and was busy berating myself for not knowing how to act around him. the worst part is I sometimes do fine and act completely normal around him, and other times I'm terrified. sigh.

...Having not left my house in about a week.

going into excruciating detail in response to a casual remark from a cashier about the topography of the area. it dawned on me that he had other things to do after about 5 minutes. i just go into "report mode" when a subject that i have collected data on is presented to me. i realized i had over stretched his available attention span (situational, not native (he was working)) as i realized i was getting diminishing returns of intelligible comments from him about the matter, and i finally decided i was bored talking to him, but he must have decided he was bored talking to me long before i got bored.

i can not be trapped in a boring situation, so i think of something else i can do, and my attention evaporates from what is boring me.

i suspect he may keep his conversation with me to a minimum in future.

talking to a guy i know and he's making comments about how my eyes are big and beautiful and i say that i can give a really creepy blank stare and he's like "like the one you're giving me now?". i really thought i was making an amused expression but evidently not.

..........

I am having one now. I am making a bumper-sized PDF on every bit of useful research I can find about antipsychotics, even the ones that are not marketed in the UK.

One of my most memorable ASD moments was:
I found a girl from my class crying with her friends and from what I gather, she is crying because her boyfriend split up with her. She turns to me and asks me why the hell her boyfriend broke up with her. I reply "maybe he broke up with you because he didn't like you". I was hated by that group for a while after that. But honestly, if a boyfriend breaks up with a girl, then obviously the boyfriend doesn't like the girl anymore? *confused*

when humans communicate, they look at each others eyes, but they can not look at both of the other persons eyes simultaneously, so they must choose one eye or the other to look at.
i have looked at TV scenes in the past which show a person zig zagging their attention from one eye to the other
when spiders communicate with each other, which eye of the other spider does a spider look at? spiders have 8 eyes generally (thank goodness i am not a spider living in a spider community), so do all 8 of their eyes focus on just one eye of another spider or do they do a super complicated dance of gazes across every eye of their counterparts? i suspect they are not bothered with this decision process, but my decision to post that idea is possibly not what an average person would do.