drowbot0181 wrote:
TouchVanDerBoom wrote:
76.
I would have been higher a few years ago. I was agoraphobic and wouldn't even go to the local shop alone. I rarely left the house and had my ex take care of all my affairs. Now that I'm independent I have to do everything for myself so I have had no choice but to learn to deal.
Is it possible to become agoraphobic? I leave the house less and less and it seems to get harder and harder to force myself to go to work in the morning. I keep thinking that if I don't make myself go and do something social that I'm going to be a complete shut-in in a 5 years.
I would think it's possible. I guess it depends largely on why you're not leaving the house.
I was diagnosed as agoraphobic as a teen, but I think it was a misdiagnosis. I recently saw an episode of Obsessed where there was a guy that had agoraphobia. He couldn't go anywhere that wasn't in his comfort zone, and that zone was getting smaller, and smaller as time went on. Every time he went somewhere that he had designated outside of his zone he'd suffer horrible anxiety. He once dove out of a moving car to get away. His anxiety attacks were really bad. After seeing this, I could see how someone without any knowledge of AS could think that I had agoraphobia. I don't like being in places that aren't familiar, and thus unpredictable. I need to know what to expect when I go places. If it's somewhere new, I need to know what's going to happen, and what the rules are. It seems that everyone else has common knowledge of how things are supposed to go, and how to respond accordingly. I don't have that. If someone were to explain all of that to me, I'd not be so anxious, and more willing to venture out to a variety of places more often. I make social stories for my son that will explain all of this. It's considered pretty common to do so for ASD kids, but I guess no one thinks adults need it.
I also don't like crowds. For much of the same reason. It's too unpredictable, loud, and smelly. God, people stink. I get overwhelmed, and feel like I need to leave. I fear being trapped in the middle of a crowd, because I won't be able to escape as quickly as I need to.
Basically, agoraphobia is just a fear of being caught somewhere in public, and not being able to escape if one has a panic attack. The basic fear is of the anxiety itself, so the person starts avoiding anything that they associate with anxiety.
Oh, and I am seriously place blind. I have absolutely no directional sense at all. I get lost going places that I've been to thousands of times, so I'd think it's not irrational to be afraid of being out alone when you know that chances are, you're going to get hopelessly lost.