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DandelionFireworks
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19 Feb 2011, 1:56 am

So, in case anyone here is wondering how it's turned out for me, I've recovered a lot of my emergency reserve (so I'll be able to do the impossible again for a little while-- a littler while than normal, though). Speech is back to normal, which for me is very fluent and matches my thoughts, except that I seem to be having a little trouble coming up with words, which is not the same as the trouble I was having (which was later in the process). I've stopped snapping my fingers, which might have something to do with having no time to do so, what with flapping my hands a LOT of the time now. (Whenever I'm not being watched.) I was rocking very little for a while, but now I'm doing it again. I'm also wiggling my fingers.

I have other issues, but the ones I mentioned are settled. No abilities lost. Flapping is really, really fun. I feel kind of bad about keeping it secret. So, I guess it's had lasting effects, but I call this a happy ending. (It might be a little early to declare it an ending at all, though.)

And I'm starting to think the theory that I read about it was less far from the mark than I thought. I think it might partly be naturally mimicing autistic behavior I've seen, because I seem to be mimicing the mannerisms of Amanda Baggs, whose videos I've watched. I guess that's kind of normal, though-- NTs are always picking up behaviors from each other, anyway.

In some ways, this defied my expectations. I thought I would either go totally back to normal or get pushed too far and burn out. I did neither. I'm okay with that.


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