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I feel ret*d but don't like being called ret*d. I know that doesn't make any sense. My IQ is Borderline Intellectual functioning so they are not far off. It is 82, I am not that bright. I have classic autism though and not Asperger's Syndrome. I know I am more like Asperger's now compared to when I was young when I was much more severely autistic. Back then I didn't socialize and now I can't socialize nearly enough, I love talking to people. I have friends and everything. I can't figure out simple things and my common sense is bad.

Kids are real jerks, and often their parents won't teach them any better.

It's ok. I'm friends with many of them on facebook now, and their lives are so much worse than mine. So, it all comes back around to bite them in the butt! The funny thing is, most of them don't even remember doing the things they did to me, unless they are reminded. I said offhand to a guy "You know, you were mean as hell to me in school" and he said he really didn't remember being mean. I asked if he forgot tying me to the flagpole and giving me a wedgie and then he remembered. He thought it was funny. Looking back, no, it's still not funny. His wife left him and he's working and raising their son by himself.

i used to wonder if i'm slightly ret*d or just extremely dumb before someone told me it's probably asperger. people shouldn't use the word ret*d as an insult. ret*d people are not at fault for being ret*d and they have to struggle hard in life. using the word as an insult is disrespecful to them. i know in south united state they call those people 'slow', not saying to word ret*d. that's better.
i know many people think i'm stupid because i catch on so slowly and don't always understand what people say to me, etc... some have called me stupid to my face. bastards.
i've read somewhere ret*d people are much more gentle than the average population. i've met one and he had a heart of gold. i felt some kind of a connaction to him (didnt know i was an aspie then) and saw a few with down syndrome and they seemed so friendly and sweet, they're much better human beings than those who use the word ret*d as an insult.
or maybe i'm being harsh. sometimes children just repeat what they hear and when they grow, well, childhood habit are hard to break and they don't really think about what they're saying, and don't mean it as an insult.
where i come from the word 'donkey' is an insult and donkeys are very nice animals. i don't think people who call each other 'donkey' mean anything by it.

Yeah people called me ret*d all of the time, but that was more because of a speech impediment than my behavior in social situations; however when I was in 7th grade someone asked me if I have Aspergers syndrome so I probably would have been picked on a lot more formy behavior if not for my speech impediment.

I remember feeling that way often as a child. I didn't feel I was the one with the problem, I felt everyone else was just stupid and the ones with mental issues. Even as an adult I sometimes suspect that with some people. Some people think I am a freeloader becuase I don't want to be a vet tech before applying to vet school. I might be going to vet school by the time I am 30 anyway, but if I were to be a vet tech first, I probably wouldn't get their until I was 50. My back is already starting to go out from scolosis in my 20's and is just getting worse with age. I also suspect I may be in the early stages of MS. So who knows what kind of condition my body will be in at fifty. Yeah, go ahead and call me a hypocondriac, but I know what's going on with my body.

Most of the things I would be learning in vet school, I would also be learning in vet tech traning, so it would be a waste ot time and money. People tell me there is nothing wrong with being a vet tech and it's a good job. I'm sure it is, but that is not what I wish to be. I really wish people would support me in becoming a vet and stop making accumptions they cannot prove. But since I don't bow down to their goals for me, it's because being autstic dosen't let me see shades of gray, yet I am often praised for my ability to "think outside the box".

When I was a kid, I basicaly had no theory of mind and if you didn't know something I did, you were just stupid.

Down here, vet techs do spays and neuters and also workups and ear and tail docks. So you get to be a surgeon too at that job. Without paying a bunch of money for school.

Maybe so, but no matter what they get to do, I want to be a DVM, not an RVT. Nothing is going to change my mind.