Sometimes I wish I was more stereotypically "aspie"

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I have quite a few Aspie friends. To be honest, most of them don't think of the impression that Aspergers puts on them. They're just who they are.

I don't purposefully try to be less autistic in public but I am a very un-stereotypical Aspie. First, I'm very outgoing and social because I always tend to be happy and I like to express myself. I do it when I am alone, I do it when I'm in public, everywhere. I approach people easily and start talking to them and nothing seems to go wrong but then people just suddenly start ignoring me. I don't notice anything negative around me, but I react strongly to very simple positive emotions (I mimic them but never get the intent or the context right). I guess I'm just this hyper, over-enthusiastic kid who's constantly excited.

Perhaps because I'm wired this way, I don't have any anxiety and depression issues. I don't ever think anything is going wrong unless it goes very wrong; I do worry sometimes but it seems to never beat me down and just motivates me instead. So, whenever I disclose, people who only really had an exposure to those who have ASD with comorbids think that I don't have ASD, perhaps because I don't have any hesitations or fears. I've also compensated a lot and worked hard on certain aspects of myself, like organization skills and academic skills, which might be another factor. It is annoying and I often feel like I'm stuck in the middle. Perhaps I think so much about this because I am around other people a lot and have started to wonder why sometimes they question the truth of my diagnosis. It only happens occasionally, but when it does, it really makes me not trust myself anymore and sends me into deep contemplation. It's just a nuisance.