Does my bum look big in this?
sir mix alot again
I wish i could say that was my theme tune.... but nope...
Personally when it comes to woman who i fancy the most, it is usually girls who are slender, nice rounded buts.
Ideally smaller than me size, (smaller than 5'8).
But, when it comes to personality, I can overlook some aspects of my ideal physical model if the woman is
really cool, kind, level headed. Not a psycho that tries to kill me kind of person.
I also in some ways feel that it is noble to rigidly follow my moral virtues of living a completely honest life.
I am not an arrogant person myself, i try and see myself as objectively as possible, and i don't want others to
pretend i am any different. To me that is bad logic.
In the words of Popeye the sailor man "I am what I am"...
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Hard to tell when you have gone without for even a few weeks, but tell you, when you have it on tap,
you wish you had vodka or champagne rather than water.... especially if the tap started to verbally abuse you and expect all sorts of crazy BS out of you.
anyway buts are buts, come in all shapes and sizes, and if that was all it was, then sure, life would be easy.
However, buts are connected to complex and sometimes over complex beings, that are more than enough to make any one go mad!! ! !
Rule of thumb....
If the but is big and connected to the best human you have ever met, hooray! then perhaps you can make a go of things....
however, if the same but is connected to the biggest contrary nob who constantly complains about the pea under her pillow, then, just perhaps the but isn't worth the hassle that your getting....
the simple lesson in life is....
not all buts are equal...
some buts really are worth more than others...
choose wisely my friends...
Low maintenance big butts over big butts that are high maintenance.
I would lie if I said Im low main, but I also give more than everyone I met. I'm a little codependent.
Some people like clingy.
It's less ambiguous.
Everybody who said they do, and that they are, didn't last my clingy, even if I played cool to extreme.
I tend to soothe ppl too much and be too honest and open book. People need anxiety to feel attracted. Instinct to procreate in war times.
I dunno, usually after several years I still appreciate it. I feel enough anxiety all the time I that I appreciate stability in that context.
That didn't work for my super anxious ex. He would commonly experience 8 out of 10 anxiety, just normal life.
I'm sorry that's how that played out for you guys. Might there be more to it? In my experience there's rarely a single thing that makes things no longer work.
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I am a little embarissed to say but when I asked while dating, what my first girlfriend said that she liked about me she said that she liked my bum.
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Hard to tell when you have gone without for even a few weeks, but tell you, when you have it on tap,
you wish you had vodka or champagne rather than water.... especially if the tap started to verbally abuse you and expect all sorts of crazy BS out of you.
anyway buts are buts, come in all shapes and sizes, and if that was all it was, then sure, life would be easy.
However, buts are connected to complex and sometimes over complex beings, that are more than enough to make any one go mad!! ! !
Rule of thumb....
If the but is big and connected to the best human you have ever met, hooray! then perhaps you can make a go of things....
however, if the same but is connected to the biggest contrary nob who constantly complains about the pea under her pillow, then, just perhaps the but isn't worth the hassle that your getting....
the simple lesson in life is....
not all buts are equal...
some buts really are worth more than others...
choose wisely my friends...
Low maintenance big butts over big butts that are high maintenance.
I would lie if I said Im low main, but I also give more than everyone I met. I'm a little codependent.
Some people like clingy.
It's less ambiguous.
Everybody who said they do, and that they are, didn't last my clingy, even if I played cool to extreme.
I tend to soothe ppl too much and be too honest and open book. People need anxiety to feel attracted. Instinct to procreate in war times.
I dunno, usually after several years I still appreciate it. I feel enough anxiety all the time I that I appreciate stability in that context.
That didn't work for my super anxious ex. He would commonly experience 8 out of 10 anxiety, just normal life.
I'm sorry that's how that played out for you guys. Might there be more to it? In my experience there's rarely a single thing that makes things no longer work.
He was bored and mean, then he started flirting with someone else daily in front of me and talk about being together despite me talking to him about it. He would always say everything is alright and to stop worrying, though. He slowly started spending less time with me and less attention, not allowing me to touch him, the same old cold pull away behavior.
This is usually what happens to me. And then if I cry, they say I am seeking attention or trying to control them. So I start looking for ways to leave, friends to help me out. Because after that phase I can't change them and am usually physically suffering in some ways from the stress, either skin lesions, or headaches because of sucking up, or hormone dysbalances with bleeding for months.
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Hard to tell when you have gone without for even a few weeks, but tell you, when you have it on tap,
you wish you had vodka or champagne rather than water.... especially if the tap started to verbally abuse you and expect all sorts of crazy BS out of you.
anyway buts are buts, come in all shapes and sizes, and if that was all it was, then sure, life would be easy.
However, buts are connected to complex and sometimes over complex beings, that are more than enough to make any one go mad!! ! !
Rule of thumb....
If the but is big and connected to the best human you have ever met, hooray! then perhaps you can make a go of things....
however, if the same but is connected to the biggest contrary nob who constantly complains about the pea under her pillow, then, just perhaps the but isn't worth the hassle that your getting....
the simple lesson in life is....
not all buts are equal...
some buts really are worth more than others...
choose wisely my friends...
Low maintenance big butts over big butts that are high maintenance.
I would lie if I said Im low main, but I also give more than everyone I met. I'm a little codependent.
Some people like clingy.
It's less ambiguous.
Everybody who said they do, and that they are, didn't last my clingy, even if I played cool to extreme.
I tend to soothe ppl too much and be too honest and open book. People need anxiety to feel attracted. Instinct to procreate in war times.
I dunno, usually after several years I still appreciate it. I feel enough anxiety all the time I that I appreciate stability in that context.
That didn't work for my super anxious ex. He would commonly experience 8 out of 10 anxiety, just normal life.
I'm sorry that's how that played out for you guys. Might there be more to it? In my experience there's rarely a single thing that makes things no longer work.
He was bored and mean, then he started flirting with someone else daily in front of me and talk about being together despite me talking to him about it. He would always say everything is alright and to stop worrying, though. He slowly started spending less time with me and less attention, not allowing me to touch him, the same old cold pull away behavior.
This is usually what happens to me. And then if I cry, they say I am seeking attention or trying to control them. So I start looking for ways to leave, friends to help me out.
Ugh, I hate being stuck in the terminal phase. It's like a slowly opening wound that the person inflicting will try to pretend otherwise until it's so obvious you can't not bring it up.
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"Many of us like to ask ourselves, What would I do if I was alive during slavery? Or the Jim Crow South? Or apartheid? What would I do if my country was committing genocide?' The answer is, you're doing it. Right now." —Former U.S. Airman (Air Force) Aaron Bushnell
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Hard to tell when you have gone without for even a few weeks, but tell you, when you have it on tap,
you wish you had vodka or champagne rather than water.... especially if the tap started to verbally abuse you and expect all sorts of crazy BS out of you.
anyway buts are buts, come in all shapes and sizes, and if that was all it was, then sure, life would be easy.
However, buts are connected to complex and sometimes over complex beings, that are more than enough to make any one go mad!! ! !
Rule of thumb....
If the but is big and connected to the best human you have ever met, hooray! then perhaps you can make a go of things....
however, if the same but is connected to the biggest contrary nob who constantly complains about the pea under her pillow, then, just perhaps the but isn't worth the hassle that your getting....
the simple lesson in life is....
not all buts are equal...
some buts really are worth more than others...
choose wisely my friends...
Low maintenance big butts over big butts that are high maintenance.
I would lie if I said Im low main, but I also give more than everyone I met. I'm a little codependent.
Some people like clingy.
It's less ambiguous.
Everybody who said they do, and that they are, didn't last my clingy, even if I played cool to extreme.
I tend to soothe ppl too much and be too honest and open book. People need anxiety to feel attracted. Instinct to procreate in war times.
I dunno, usually after several years I still appreciate it. I feel enough anxiety all the time I that I appreciate stability in that context.
That didn't work for my super anxious ex. He would commonly experience 8 out of 10 anxiety, just normal life.
I'm sorry that's how that played out for you guys. Might there be more to it? In my experience there's rarely a single thing that makes things no longer work.
He was bored and mean, then he started flirting with someone else daily in front of me and talk about being together despite me talking to him about it. He would always say everything is alright and to stop worrying, though. He slowly started spending less time with me and less attention, not allowing me to touch him, the same old cold pull away behavior.
This is usually what happens to me. And then if I cry, they say I am seeking attention or trying to control them. So I start looking for ways to leave, friends to help me out.
Ugh, I hate being stuck in the terminal phase. It's like a slowly opening wound that the person inflicting will try to pretend otherwise until it's so obvious you can't not bring it up.
The phase sucks because it usually happens from 1 month to 4. The rest is just hard work and excessive stress to bring it back and them claiming they try but denying giving time to me without distractions, then start complaining about what happens with the others. Just will not offer any intimacy, rr un from it. Want us and even say they want me to be like a friend. Really humiliating and daring towatds a partner. And I am just too nice but that isn't ok either. I wouldn't want to hurt them in any shape.
Love is a choice. They don't want to be with me anymore and eventually say it in some way or another. They are trying to keep me around though. Figuring how they feel is a long confusing painful process. I have to confront them for their behavior and pay harsh punishments and abuse for it until I get the truth.
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Hard to tell when you have gone without for even a few weeks, but tell you, when you have it on tap,
you wish you had vodka or champagne rather than water.... especially if the tap started to verbally abuse you and expect all sorts of crazy BS out of you.
anyway buts are buts, come in all shapes and sizes, and if that was all it was, then sure, life would be easy.
However, buts are connected to complex and sometimes over complex beings, that are more than enough to make any one go mad!! ! !
Rule of thumb....
If the but is big and connected to the best human you have ever met, hooray! then perhaps you can make a go of things....
however, if the same but is connected to the biggest contrary nob who constantly complains about the pea under her pillow, then, just perhaps the but isn't worth the hassle that your getting....
the simple lesson in life is....
not all buts are equal...
some buts really are worth more than others...
choose wisely my friends...
Low maintenance big butts over big butts that are high maintenance.
I would lie if I said Im low main, but I also give more than everyone I met. I'm a little codependent.
Some people like clingy.
It's less ambiguous.
Everybody who said they do, and that they are, didn't last my clingy, even if I played cool to extreme.
I tend to soothe ppl too much and be too honest and open book. People need anxiety to feel attracted. Instinct to procreate in war times.
I dunno, usually after several years I still appreciate it. I feel enough anxiety all the time I that I appreciate stability in that context.
That didn't work for my super anxious ex. He would commonly experience 8 out of 10 anxiety, just normal life.
I'm sorry that's how that played out for you guys. Might there be more to it? In my experience there's rarely a single thing that makes things no longer work.
He was bored and mean, then he started flirting with someone else daily in front of me and talk about being together despite me talking to him about it. He would always say everything is alright and to stop worrying, though. He slowly started spending less time with me and less attention, not allowing me to touch him, the same old cold pull away behavior.
This is usually what happens to me. And then if I cry, they say I am seeking attention or trying to control them. So I start looking for ways to leave, friends to help me out.
Ugh, I hate being stuck in the terminal phase. It's like a slowly opening wound that the person inflicting will try to pretend otherwise until it's so obvious you can't not bring it up.
The phase sucks because it usually happens from 1 month to 4. The rest is just hard work and excessive stress to bring it back and them claiming they try but denying giving time to me without distractions, then start complaining about what happens with the others. Just will not offer any intimacy, rr un from it. Want us and even say they want me to be like a friend. Really humiliating and daring towatds a partner. And I am just too nice but that isn't ok either. I wouldn't want to hurt them in any shape.
Love is a choice. They don't want to be with me anymore and eventually say it in some way or another. They are trying to keep me around though. Figuring how they feel is a long confusing painful process. I have to challenge them and pay for it until I get the truth.
Is the problem the type of people you choose to be in a relationship with?
Do they have common traits?
Are they more extroverted than introverted, as an example?
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Hard to tell when you have gone without for even a few weeks, but tell you, when you have it on tap,
you wish you had vodka or champagne rather than water.... especially if the tap started to verbally abuse you and expect all sorts of crazy BS out of you.
anyway buts are buts, come in all shapes and sizes, and if that was all it was, then sure, life would be easy.
However, buts are connected to complex and sometimes over complex beings, that are more than enough to make any one go mad!! ! !
Rule of thumb....
If the but is big and connected to the best human you have ever met, hooray! then perhaps you can make a go of things....
however, if the same but is connected to the biggest contrary nob who constantly complains about the pea under her pillow, then, just perhaps the but isn't worth the hassle that your getting....
the simple lesson in life is....
not all buts are equal...
some buts really are worth more than others...
choose wisely my friends...
Low maintenance big butts over big butts that are high maintenance.
I would lie if I said Im low main, but I also give more than everyone I met. I'm a little codependent.
Some people like clingy.
It's less ambiguous.
Everybody who said they do, and that they are, didn't last my clingy, even if I played cool to extreme.
I tend to soothe ppl too much and be too honest and open book. People need anxiety to feel attracted. Instinct to procreate in war times.
I dunno, usually after several years I still appreciate it. I feel enough anxiety all the time I that I appreciate stability in that context.
That didn't work for my super anxious ex. He would commonly experience 8 out of 10 anxiety, just normal life.
I'm sorry that's how that played out for you guys. Might there be more to it? In my experience there's rarely a single thing that makes things no longer work.
He was bored and mean, then he started flirting with someone else daily in front of me and talk about being together despite me talking to him about it. He would always say everything is alright and to stop worrying, though. He slowly started spending less time with me and less attention, not allowing me to touch him, the same old cold pull away behavior.
This is usually what happens to me. And then if I cry, they say I am seeking attention or trying to control them. So I start looking for ways to leave, friends to help me out.
Ugh, I hate being stuck in the terminal phase. It's like a slowly opening wound that the person inflicting will try to pretend otherwise until it's so obvious you can't not bring it up.
The phase sucks because it usually happens from 1 month to 4. The rest is just hard work and excessive stress to bring it back and them claiming they try but denying giving time to me without distractions, then start complaining about what happens with the others. Just will not offer any intimacy, rr un from it. Want us and even say they want me to be like a friend. Really humiliating and daring towatds a partner. And I am just too nice but that isn't ok either. I wouldn't want to hurt them in any shape.
Love is a choice. They don't want to be with me anymore and eventually say it in some way or another. They are trying to keep me around though. Figuring how they feel is a long confusing painful process. I have to challenge them and pay for it until I get the truth.
Is the problem the type of people you choose to be in a relationship with?
Do they have common traits?
Are they more extroverted than introverted, as an example?
I have chosen warm seeming people more often but not always. Sometimes gutty people, but not always, sometimes sweet and nice people. Sometimes extreme brainiacs, I admit that mistake. I like to avoid what I had and think was problematic. And I like to vary it up.
I have also chosen ones I wasn't attracted to, but I trusted because we seemed understanding of each other.
However things are never as they seem. In a relationship especially after puppy love fades, people are very different.
Many people also lie about how they are
Of course I usually don't intend to "give the right answers". I like challenging people verbally and get quite stoked if they argue back. From my experience people already know (or think they know) if they have big butts or not. Nothing I say would change their personal opinion anyway. I've told my husband everyday in the last 20 years that he's not fat, and he still feels fat.
Some clothes look better than others.
The question is posed to determine if the style suits.
Well, it should.
A GF of mine had a big butt, but it was very shapely and was a turn on.
Butt, it didn't look good in corduroy, whereas it was super-sexy in jeans.
I have also chosen ones I wasn't attracted to, but I trusted because we seemed understanding of each other.
However things are never as they seem. In a relationship especially after puppy love fades, people are very different.
Many people also lie about how they are
You seem to be adorable.
Well, at least you don't have problems finding people.
You just need a way of keeping them.
Perhaps you need to be less clingy?
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It's like if someone called me unattractive but added that they like me because I have inner beauty or a wonderful personality, I won't value the latter so much (although inner beauty is valuable and I don't judge people by appearance), I'd be too upset about being unattractive. Although inner beauty is technically better than physical looks, appearance and attractiveness still plays an important part in how you are perceived. I'm more shy and socially anxious in public places simply because people don't know me, and strangers only look at what's on the outside of you. So when out in public it's nice to know that you look attractive because that's all thousands of strangers will see, even though you won't see them again it's still nice to feel emotionally included.
It doesn't matter how much inner beauty you have, humans naturally value physical attractiveness in themselves. Although I believe that there is no such thing as ugly and I'll never call anyone ugly even if I hated them, because that can hurt someone's ego an awful lot, even if that person is quite thick-skinned.
Agreed. It can feel insulting, take from me rather than give.
Not to mention that women who are praised for the physical have a hard time when they're growing old. They feel that everything important about them is gone.
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I have also chosen ones I wasn't attracted to, but I trusted because we seemed understanding of each other.
However things are never as they seem. In a relationship especially after puppy love fades, people are very different.
Many people also lie about how they are
You seem to be adorable.
Well, at least you don't have problems finding people.
You just need a way of keeping them.
Perhaps you need to be less clingy?
I don't need a way of keeping them, but I can use help in dumping them.
you honestly think you can keep someone who doesn't want you? Well I can, but I don't want to
I have played cool all my life, but it isn't healthy nor helpful. I have hungered myself from affection even unnecessarily many years
The healthier alternative is to forget them as soon as they forget me and it seems pointless and hard to actually get off the addiction and move on so if they ever decide to return to get attached again
Like they say, one needs to focus on the ones who give back. Many people will come into our lives, talk big and end up being inconsistent and fade out. Chasing after them and putting in effort will not bring them back, will make them feel they are right to think they feel nothing towards you. If they start emotionally investing in someone new you gotta see the fish and start dating too.
It just seems stupid, like mind games. But it's better than being a fool
Besides rekindling with a partner who claims to be in love with you and to do anything to have you back has proven not healthy and doesn't fix anything. Just another lie
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Of course I usually don't intend to "give the right answers". I like challenging people verbally and get quite stoked if they argue back. From my experience people already know (or think they know) if they have big butts or not. Nothing I say would change their personal opinion anyway. I've told my husband everyday in the last 20 years that he's not fat, and he still feels fat.
Some clothes look better than others.
The question is posed to determine if the style suits.
Well, it should.
A GF of mine had a big butt, but it was very shapely and was a turn on.
Butt, it didn't look good in corduroy, whereas it was super-sexy in jeans.
then again there is that one guy who has a fetish for big butts in corduroy. Never trust opinion xD
Yere the whole liking big but thing... something that i wouldn't trust... ... like really
but hey corduroy bit of a niche fetish.... kind of retro 60s hippy thing going on, perhaps spilt over to surfer skater baggy sheek that the rest of the universe doesn't understand... and while within your own group, wearing baggy surfer designer corduroy baggies, you are cool or normal at least, every one else looks at you as if you are a freak!....
but isn't that fashion all over....
Like I say, that big but love thing, not something i'm into, but what ever floats your boat...
As for getting over the 1 - 4 month thing, perhaps it is an unrealistic expectation expecting a relationship to be constantly fun, excitement etc. for ever.
In my experience, long term relationships really aren't all packed with fun and excitement day to day,
and in fact are bit more like a slow burning candle than a constant fire work display
perhaps that is why so many relationships end up failing
every one wants fireworks forever
but unless you are a billionaire
then it really is extremely hard to make mundane life super exciting for an entire lifetime...
i guess its a bit like buddhist way of looking at life
they don't say life isn't s**t
and don't promise you a super cool after life
they tell you to learn to love boring life by learning to accept suffering
which is profound in itself
and your partner is like your companion on this journey
who is there to support you with the highs and lows
instead of just the highs
and then does one to an easier circumstance
as soon as things get hard
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Hot hippo.
Love how at the end of the song Snoop is like 'Damn baby, you got a bright future behind you'
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but hey corduroy bit of a niche fetish.... kind of retro 60s hippy thing going on, perhaps spilt over to surfer skater baggy sheek that the rest of the universe doesn't understand... and while within your own group, wearing baggy surfer designer corduroy baggies, you are cool or normal at least, every one else looks at you as if you are a freak!....
but isn't that fashion all over....
Like I say, that big but love thing, not something i'm into, but what ever floats your boat...
As for getting over the 1 - 4 month thing, perhaps it is an unrealistic expectation expecting a relationship to be constantly fun, excitement etc. for ever.
In my experience, long term relationships really aren't all packed with fun and excitement day to day,
and in fact are bit more like a slow burning candle than a constant fire work display
perhaps that is why so many relationships end up failing
every one wants fireworks forever
but unless you are a billionaire
then it really is extremely hard to make mundane life super exciting for an entire lifetime...
i guess its a bit like buddhist way of looking at life
they don't say life isn't s**t
and don't promise you a super cool after life
they tell you to learn to love boring life by learning to accept suffering
which is profound in itself
and your partner is like your companion on this journey
who is there to support you with the highs and lows
instead of just the highs
and then does one to an easier circumstance
as soon as things get hard
Beautiful and touching post.