What happened when you stopped your meds?

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I stopped taking Topamax (the evil substance I took when I was misdiagnosed with BPD) cold turkey. I felt 1,000 times better. I didn't feel quite so irritable, and wonder of wonders, I could finally eat without feeling like I was going to throw up.

How did you get diagnosed with BPD????
What are you diagnosed with now?

I'm currently not diagnosed with anything. My psychologist brought up AS in some of our sessions but doesn't want to diagnose too quickly. Although we both agree that the BPD diagnosis is bunk.

In 1999, I was a junior in high school. School depressed me to pieces, my classmates called me weird and psycho all the time, and I wasn't fitting in at my church. I wanted to die. So I sought help. I went to a psychiatrist in town, who diagnosed me halfway through my first visit and immediately brought out the prescription pad. That was loads of fun

mmm. where do I start?? mm yike...... well im just gonna give you my webpage link otherwise i will be repeating myself... http://www.psychopanic.com/panic.php

well as alot of pple know. .i went cold turkey on my antidepressant citalopram on July. 27th..... yes - i have been up and down and all other sorts of stuff (another weblink - http://www.psychopanic.com/diagnoses.php#withdrawal )

well well well.. everyone seems to think that BECAUSE of my withdrawal, they have just assumed that it is NOT due to my withdrawal or something, but they are saying taht i am in my hypomania stage of manic depression. the other one going around is that i now have borderline personality disorder.

why cnat you IDIOTS know that I too have done a cold turkey on my antidepressant, and just like EVERYONE else here, it will take a while for the chemical balance to get back to normal.

geez you idiots... ill prove you all wrong one day - i really will! its not my fault that i can outthink my thoughts and STOP panic attacks, stop suicidal thoughts and realise if i were depressed or not.

mauahahah my mind ROCKS!

p.s. anbuend wrote this in the thread here:

listen, READ and WEEP.. i am undergoing withdrawal symptoms, i am NOT beginning or continuing apparent bipolar disorder which i just DONT plainly have.. bugger off now and start whinging. grrr

mmm i seem to be rather angry these days.. ill get a job soon.

I have heard that going cold turkey from AD's is the wrong way to stop taking them. Why would people do that?

well.. the only reason i went cold turkey was because i felt confident last month that i wasnt anxious or depressed, and that i have already had 3 years of side effects from them... i was ready for any side effect... plus.. i did not feel like tapering forever and ever and ever.

im fine now. and yes my mind is still getting back to some kind of flat slate (ie balanced) but im still happy and not depressed.... all is good

So is this considered an apology for your last posts calling people idiots and all and acting immature and rude? If this is a 'flat state/balanced', I'd be worried what an imbalanced would be.

mish... why dont you jump in a lake and tell someone who cares? stop being so damn angry.. i wanna chat bout normal stuff now.. geez.. grrr lets move on huh

I considered you a friend and then you turn around and act like this and all, yeah, some of the people that cared about you do have a right to be a bit upset at your immaturity and all. So excuse those of us who care about you and that you call 'idiots' for actually being concerned. And you don't understand why some are upset and angry like I am? Don't expect those you call 'idiots' to be so keen to accept your insults and move on without consequences in the long term.

a polite reminder to keep to the argument and not attack the person, please, folks. let's not make it personal, eh?

if anyone wants to refresh their memory, it's here:

http://www.wrongplanet.net/modules.php? ... 19&start=0

Vivi
(as Mod)

Can someone, preferably Kitkatsavy, please explain to me what anybody here did that they deserve to be called an idiot? I can't seem to find anything.

(skipping around the sharp words in above threads)
Been on meds. off & on since 1994.
Most recently was on Lexapro at 20 mg. 1x/day, for 6 months. Quit all at once (not tapering down), w/o telling-waited a month or so to inform "team of professionals" that I did this. Side f/x were just as nasty going on it as they were coming off it. Never had noticed such (start & stop) symptoms w/other meds. (all were SSRI's) I'd been on. Felt mind and body were so tense and zoomy and agitated and yikes !
Lucky that I found "CrazyMeds" site online, bc. people there had similar stories of coming off Lexapro-it hadn't even occurred to me that I was having "withdrawal"-discontinuation symptoms. Told my "mental health providers" after I was sure I'd be okay, once the disequilibrium had dissipated. Didn't want them to have dire warnings about what I'd experience, going off med. suddenly. Placebo-effect, y'know ? Couldn't bear it if they gave me "bad mojo", more fear, before or during the rough ride-it was bad enough, and I didn't have much idea about what to expect. That was a few months back.
Voted "other", bc. it's not just one outcome/result or the other, in time & space variables vary !

I am kind of wondering if kitkatsavvy is sort of doing what I sometimes do in a meltdown when I call people idiots. When I get that much out of control I often seem to lash out at the people around me, not for any specific reason, but just because they are there (note: if no one is around during a meltdown I usually yell at other things). Sometimes when trying to communicate online (not just here, or in chatrooms), it can seem like people are attacking when they simply do not understand something. I guess it depends on how aggresively people are trying to understand. Perhaps she feels this way and is just trying to defend herself, I don't know, that is just a guess. I do not know anything about withdrawl symptoms from AD's, but it could be that she is having a real hard time with them and needs to get some help to try to get things under control.

Kittykatsavvy, unless someone has experienced what you are going through they can't understand it. You might want to consider talking to a doctor about what is going on before you go looking for work. I don't think it has to be a psychiatrist when dealing with AD's. Many GP's prescribe them without the recommendation of someone in the mental health field.

As far as being called an idiot is concerned: I have no problem admitting that I am a complete idiot in many ways. No, I don't feel bad about that and I am not being hard on myself. It's just a fact.

once when i forgot to take my meds (citalopram) i became really suicidal... but now i've started skipping for as long as i can because they make me tired, i take them when i start to go nutty but mainly i've just been drinkin instead...um, that's not very good either...

anyways i'm gonna give adderall a try if my doc will scribe it for me, and if i somehow will remember to call to make an appt!

Wow.
I didn't see that page.
I think there was a leak from another thread.
That looked like a wicked rebound from the antidepressants.
I am anti-medication myself. I have a huge ambivalent relationship with my pscyhostimulant because I can't feel anything different. I want to feel something. I don't even feel more organized. I am, but I don't feel it. I only feel it when I stop it. Major disaster. So I know it must be doing something. On the other hand, on the GF diet, I am way down on the dosage and hope someday to try not taking anything.

Idiot only applies to me when I stop taking my meds....

The other times, other words like crazy, wierd, geek, genius - those are better.
I like being strange.