Underlying Cause of Asperger's Syndrome: Existential Dread?

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These are my conclusions as far as my own existential dread:

Logically, for a materialist (which I am), there is little point to life in that there is no greater goal deemed by the universe. Therefore, once I realized this, I logically decided that it was up to me to decide my own point, my own purpose, whether the universe had ordained it or not.

To me, life is meant to be enjoyed: that is its purpose, because nothing lasts. Therefore, it's all a succession of Nows (not to say one shouldn't plan for tomorrow, but even tomorrow will become a Now). However, I also find enjoyment in feeling as though I'm working towards something, a goal, which will hopefully have its rippling effect after I'm dead and decayed (or in the case of cement coffins, turn into gooey mush ).

Just like any religion, life is what you make it. One may consider that depressing to believe in no universal purpose. But on the flip side, think of the POWER that gives you: to design your own purpose. That's rather godlike in fact... It's thrilling!

Just think, of all the combinations the atoms of stars could have taken, on this little planet, Earth, circumstance deemed that they would create proteins and eventually us. We can think, act, affect change, even reflect on the universe itself. We're quite a fascinating little star-born hiccup.

I think the existential angst we go through is a result of our trying to constantly figure out the "theory" behind everything. We can't figure out the theory behind the universe, or the reason it's here, as that would imply from one thought you could create the entire world, including that thought, and so we give up on the notion that there even is a world at all, since we can't figure it out. Then, usually as we encounter some kind of physical pain, we realize that we definitely at least exist. So we go onto the next step, which is assuming that we exist, but that it doesn't make sense, that we shouldn't really exist. Then, instead of pain, the consequence of this belief is depression, which is where we generally are. Many people never get to the next step in this process.

The problem is that believing that we exist, but that logically we shouldn't, is absurd. Who are we to declare to the whole of the universe that it shouldn't be here? Obviously there is something faulty with our mental model that we have arrived at this conclusion. Believing that everything shouldn't be here is in slight conflict with the fact that everything is here.

The question is, what does the world like when viewed through the paradigm that everything is here AND that it should be here as well? Perhaps that would give a more liberating view on reality.

i agree to an extent...(extremely long pause

Reading Sequences cured my existential angst. It takes a while to read the thousands of pages of blog posts but the philosophy contained therein is the most profound I have ever read.

Because I was one hardcore existentialist when I was a two year old.

Emo is just a sub culture in the punk rock scene. Fans of the music aren't always down on life. They were some of the happiest kids I've ever met.

Lastly, correlation does mean causation. I hate that statement but it comes in handy.

Usually when I see people I think they are blissfully ignorant about big picture (there is no meaning and you are practically dead when you born etc). Whenenever I drop this mentality I'm like another person: happy, sociable and well liked. Then I reflect back towards the world and become embarrassed and angry at myself.
I wiev aspergers as philosophical condition.

I fail to see the correlation myself. At what point do autistic traits lead to existential crises? Does severity of symptoms have a direct correlation with the deepening of such feelings? Do NT's just generally not experience this? If they do, then where is the connection and how do we quantify this?

From my experiences, most people with autism (that I've met) don't seem to act in an "emo" or "goth" fashion. If I were to make a pure estimate, it would be that autism decreases the likelihood of falling into these categories, not increases.

Existential dread is at the forefront of my thoughts in almost every moment I experience. I think what it is primarily about is this realization of objective reality and its dissonance from human reality; meaning: while reality is an objective thing, humans don't have the organs with which to observe all of it and often supplement that with things like meaning, philosophy, and thought systems. For me, I accept the existence of reality as something I cannot wholly perceive and thus find my own reality through that. Having that view on life, I tend to view many human practices and customs as completely arbitrary and based solely on the human drive to create a barrier from existential dread.
All in all, I think that your theory is very intriguing and I'd be very interested in exploring it further!

Latest cause I heard was birth trauma causing spinal damage in the neck.