Did anyone else ever have an incident like this as a child?

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In grade 6 and 7, I was getting rather paranoid and extremely anxious with all the bullying I was going through. It came to the point where I was banging my head against the desk, just because that was what I thought the whole class wanted. Though I think that is more paranoia and just anxiety overwhelming me.

In grade 2, I acted up. I did not like being in that class so I would sit under my desk and make animal sounds and when confronted, I would "talk in an imaginary language" - aka slur/babble. I had written a few things in that babble too. I was always sent away into a cubicle in the office - in fact, I think half of grade 2 in that cubicle room.

I remember watching a boy being teased by the entire class of kids. I was 5 and it was like watching a swarm of locusts. I remember being surprised watching them as each other child seemed to catch the last child's behaviour and imitate them until the whole class was chanting in unison at this boy. I remember thinking "Why are they doing that?"

I remember also when I was 11 a girl wet her pants. She was ushered out of the classroom and the teacher said she had a bladder infection, and we were not to mention it to anyone, it was a secret.
Later on at lunch I was dying to talk about it, I wanted to ask what a bladder infection was and how can it make someone wet themselves and why wasnt the girl just kept at home if she was sick? I was bursting, I was really bad at keeping secrets, so I asked a question about it, not mentioning the girls name though. This other girl told a teacher I was talking about it and I was sent to the principal for being malicious. I didnt even know malice existed, because I didnt understand what could be gained from hurting someone.

There is nothing to be gained from hurting someone... Unless you are someone who preys on the weak, and enjoys the pain of others.

Edit: I don't enjoy my own pain, I hate seeing others being pained even more.

Last edited by Padium on 03 Jan 2009, 12:46 pm, edited 1 time in total.

I dont think I've done anything like in the OP and TBH I cant remember details but I remember in primary school I was in detention at break time and I had no idea why. I remember the exact view I had where I was looking through a door which was mostly glass with a white frame, it was one where you could slide it... (why did I just post that information, I doubt anyone cares... Oh well)...

I got another one I will add. When I was a kid, I often enjoyed playing with girls the way they would play. While I did have my own interests, I would often enjoy playing barbies with my sister, and the one girl I had a childhood crush on for the longest time... Looking back, that crush was kinda odd and creepy, and I just want to forget about it. Anyways, my dad must have thought I just wanted to play with my sister, because he never thought anything about it, and because I still enjoyed a lot of boy stuff too. Just glad I am not like my 5 yold brother who is also a kid that enjoys playing with feminine toys, but actually asks for them when looking through flyers. My dad probably would have thought I was a little crazy at that time.

Similar things have happened to me before, except I didn't make it to the bathroom: I always fainted in the lab. People had to pick me up off the floor.

This is one of the downsides of having a vivid imagination. I always feel see and even taste what someone's describing in detail.

At the mention and detailed description of the following topics I go out like a light:

-drugs
-pathogens: harmful viruses, bacteria, food poisoning etc.
-eyes and the eyeball
-other miscellaneous human biological processes

It was such a shame because I was so good at writing essays on those topics: they even received high grades.

It was just being trapped in an uncomfortable chair in a lab listening to someone go on and on about these topics always made me black out. Videos about these topics were even worse.

This is weird because some topics I had no problems with at all like bone structure or muscles. Nobody else used to faint apart from me: it was terribly embarrassing.

I almost cracked my head open several times after traveling in a parabola on my lab chair. Not pleasant experiences.

I used to have a lot of fainting spells when I was a teenager, but that was mostly due to sensory issues, I think...too many people, people being too close to me, etc. (Or possibly iron deficiency, or both?) As I recall, it happened a few times in choir practice, being up on those bleachers with all those people surrounding me. Which was a shame, because I really enjoyed the singing part....

I once called my teacher "mom" I was so embaressed, at the time I wish i could have shriveled into nothingness and not have been noticed. I was also half awake at the time it happened, and really wanting to be at home.

When I was a teenager it the worst time for fainting.
At High School it almost became a "running gag": "When will our oracle faint next?".
People didn't seem to mind so much at High School because I worked so hard and got good grades. Sometimes they were disappointed when I didn't faint maybe because they expected me to some strange vision, while I was unconcious, that might help them with their homework lol .

Nobody seemed to mind. It almost became like my prerogative because everyone knew I'd always catch up with the work afterwards when many of them couldn't be bothered.

As for this: "We are not worthy o great one. The great one has fainted." thing, I should have been grateful while it lasted. I don't get nearly as much attention now and to be quite brutally honest, I probably really didn't deserve that much attention in the first place.

Looking back on the whole thing, perhaps they and I should have been more worried.
Maybe sometimes it was iron deficiency or just too much going on at once physically and physiologically.
Or did they all know more about me and my situation than they were letting on?!

Perhaps I'll never really know...

I don't like crowds either. They can make me feel ill too. Some people have terribly bad breath.

With solo singing of course you don't have to deal with crowds like that...