What is your current obsession?

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I know it's not logical, but it's not really for reasons of appearance so much as control, and dislike of change (which is the feeling of a small normal amount of fat on my stomach that i'm not used to - for my last few years of school i was on ritalin, the side affect of which reduced my appetite, and I was fairly underweight, several kg lighter than I am now, and I was used to (and thus comfortable) with my body feeling like that). Sometimes I feel like I'm being suffocated by stomach fat, although not so much now as I lost a bit, and have grown more used to the adult female body as opposed to the borderline anorexic teenage one.

But yes, I really dislike that obsession, it's even worse than the careers one which is saying quite a lot considering the INSANE amount of stress I get from the latter. But yes, having these as my main obsessions this year has lost me a lot of friendships. Not to mention they are boring, shallow, unfulfilling, and I hate them. I think I've already said that. I wish I had more control over my obsessions, I reckon this years have been the worst I've ever had. I am prepared to do anything it takes this year to move on to new, or back to old, and better obsessions. I wouldn't mind being obsessed with reading again - am almost starting to head back in that direction already these uni holidays.

Modding oblivion... again.. im busy giving all the "unique weapons" (the ones with unique names or enchantments but look like normal weapons) unique appearances atm which is my biggest project ever by far... but alotta fun

I get it as I have seen the exact same thing happen. Stress in one form or another always seems to be a factor.

My friends have taken the speedy stuff for long periods (not ritalin but similar) and haven't known how to deal with the food cravings which weren't there before after going cold turkey. My ex in particular struggled to regulate her weight after years on the stuff which effected her self confidence horrifically.

We are a weird pocket of image obsessed folk near me as I have also been anorexic in the past and last year there was a point where I couldn't walk past a mirror without checking my stomach. I would also think very carefully about anything I ate and still do. (more of an over exercising/OCD eating habits thing I think usually for guys)

I think hanging around with image obsessed people can spread these sorts of disorder quite quickly among friendgroups even in individuals with no previous history.

Negative reinforcement from my own head (thinking I am shallow etc) is also detrimental to self image but at least you are aware of that. Distracting myself with other things is the only strategy I have ever found that works although I have to be careful now not to use physical activity as a distraction as i have a tendency to push way too far.

Creative pursuits seem to work best for me at the moment.

Hope you have a better year; i know how hard it can be to think about anything else once you are in that place.

my future - i graduate in april
and the fact that my son thew up last night and i had to clean it up and i keep thinking i can smell it

I had an obsession with that game for 3 months. I still am somewhat obsessed with it, and I tend to think about it every now and then. I frequently make references to it in real life. On March 17th, 2008 I bought the game and played it non-stop until April 23rd, 2008. I bought the GOTY edition. I had completed EVERYTHING (Main Quests, side quests, both expansion quests, etc) except the settlement quests which I didn't really see any purpose for. I had completed all this in 137 hours over the span of 3 months. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to concentrate on school as Oblivion pretty much dominated my life. I like to joke around and say that I spent the semester at the Arcane University My parents were not too proud of that.

Perhaps you actually are still smelling it. Have you tried opening a window for a few minutes?

Perfumers think they can "reboot" their olfactory nerves by sniffing coffee beans.

If neither helps, maybe you need to clean the mess up again.

i don't think i am actually smelling it, everything has been washed, including me and him. its off of me that i think i'm smelling it, specifically my hands which have been washed a lot

What an eclectic bunch we are ! !

Cool! One of my previous obsessions was "serial music". Composers like Phillip Glass, Terry Riley, Steve Reich, etc. I often associated that style of composition with a rotating "vortex". Even though it isn't currently my obsession, I still enjoy this kind of music. Post samples when you get a chance.

The Middle Ages. I'd absolutely love to have my own castle.

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It's really good to hear from somebody who understands. I think part of the problem is that I really like food, I love to eat good food (not junk food though, like good nourishing healthy food) and chocolate (sadly). I don't think I am meant to be as skinny as I once was. But it's one thing for the mind to consciously acknowledge the fact, and another thing for the mind to consciously and unconsciously accept the fact. I'm getting there.

It's weird, but I can't really remember last years obsession. Perhaps it was my ex-bf, that seems quite likely. From about Grade 8 to 10 it was fanfiction. Before that, reading books (mostly fantasy).

Throughout I've had on and off obsessions with writing music, creative writing, and art in different forms.

that is not what i meant.
i composed the 2 chords myself and am trying to play them on my piano simultaneously so that their residual intersections create another inferred song.

I think I see; whilst using the sustain pedal? I love messing around with piano although I only really know how to play barre chord style- I have to think of it in terms of guitar chords otherwise I have to look at my fingers all the time.

It seems we have a bit in common. I'm agnostic. I'm not really interested in any kind of television programs. I have an obsession with language too. I find myself always analyzing sentence structure, especially among foreigners who are quite new to the English language. It says a lot about how they are used to thinking. I am intrigued by the Sapir-Whorf Hypothesis, or Linguistic Relativity. I am interested in pretty much anything that is relative, such as morality, language, the social world, our universe, etc. etc. Something about the concept of relativity just intrigues me.

Cats and an Internet site devoted to them, called the Siamese Internet Cat Club.