Greentea wrote:
sinsboldly wrote:
if you question or make them uncomfortable they lable you Borderline Personality Disorder
Yes, that happened to me.
Me four, including Callista in the lineup.
Then later, another psychiatrist added Narcissistic PD traits to my dx because I had the nerve to take an interest in what manner of therapy would be most beneficial to me. Specifically my declaration that the group therapy the mental health center had me in for borderlines wasn't addressing my issues - that what I really needed was individual therapy targeted at improving my self-esteem rather than learning how to play well with others. His reaction was to write in my file that I "presented with a strong sense of entitlement..." (I got my file because I moved to another state and requested it for my records. Fascinating and maddening reading)
Well, let's see. The mental health center was presented, advertised, marketed as a "service to the community." It was a subsidiary of the state mental health system. As a citizen of that state, I was certainly entitled to care. And where is it written that 'the patient' should have no say in their own treatment?
I knocked heads again with that same shrink about what he meant by my drug
misuse. "Ah. So if it's misuse, then there is a use, eh doc?" He scribbled something in his pad and then tried to correct himself, saying that any use was misuse and that in fact I had a substance abuse problem. I tried to point out to him that my average useage of an ounce of cannabis over a period of 2 years hardly constituted dependency. Still, because of my honesty about that and about having gone a bit wild with my beer consumption the first year I was of legal drinking age, I got "poly-substance dependency" added to my file, even though at the time of seeing him my alcohol consumption averaged a couple of glasses of wine per week.
Honesty is not the best policy with the mental health establishment. But in some things I guess I'm a slow learner because the next time I sought services some 10 years later for panic attacks, what I wanted was something I could take as needed. In a rational world, the fact that I know what works for me and what doesn't (most of it didn't) due to decades of being used as a pharmaceutical lab rat by mental health services should not be taken as an indication that I'm a junkie hunting for my next fix. However, on demonstrating my extensive knowledge of psychiatric meds (I'm an expert on everything they've given me), it was determined I was a risk for abuse and so all they were willing to give me was cymbalta - an absolutely nightmarish drug that i'd have to take daily.
The hell with that. I sorta lost my cool at that point in the interview and wanted to tell them how mistaken they were about my motives and my methods, but the words didn't come. So I just walked out. Haven't been to mental health services for a year now, and wasn't planning to go anywhere near them for the rest of my life, but now that I'm just sure I'm an Autist of some sort or another, I HAVE to know, so on May 19th, once again I venture into the belly of the beast. Though it's an autism dedicated facility, so I might stand a better chance of being properly diagnosed.for once in my life.
I think I'm going to have to address the slanderous garbage in my file about me being a some kind of drug addict, though.