Do you love or hate having aspergers/autism?

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I have a love/hate relationship with AS. Some days I fantasise about there being brain transplants and I'd be first to have one and think about how wonderful my life would be then. And other times I don't mind at all and enjoy joking about it and laughing at myself over it.

I don't hate having AS.
It describes to a large extent who I am and what I am like, and I am happy with myself.

I like being me, unless someone is harassing me for being me, and at those times I usually just wish they weren't them. At least I wish they didn't have that inconsiderate, judging attitude that says I shouldn't be me.

It's part of me, I would not be me without it.

trust me dude...it really is a fantasy, and little more.

I hate having depression. I hate the ennui that plagues me due to having so little interest in people and "normal" life. I wish I could say that I just don't care but that would be a lie. I am lonely.

just do something with yourself; something that will give you a feeling of satisfaction.

Not much does. I completely lack the sense of pride that guides most people through the drudgery that is life. I've realized that my accomplishments don't ever mean as much to me as they do to others.

Thats exactly what I thought if I was to have a brain transplant as "MONKEY" has mentioned and dreaming to be the first ever person to become a NT im afraid to break the news but it has happened before...

I also have been suffering depression and I still do once and a while which also gives me the negative view of my autism.
I have been bullied previous amount of times in the past about it. I was even called crazy back in school and the boy would used to make fun of the way I look and the way i'am...

Now I just try not to look back at those times and think forward and since being on this site, i've started to like having autism (I think i've already said this before)?

then don't do accomplishments that make them proud of you, do accomplishments that make you proud of you.

I love having it, because now I know WHY I am the way I am. For the first time in 37 years, I'm comfortable in my skin. Instead of wondering why I couldn't act the way others could, or why I saw the world differently.

My 10 yo son also has it (we've known about him for years). And he's challenging sometimes, but he wouldn't be HIM without the condition.

I wouldn't have him any other way.

I completely agree, its funny because I could have written this post myself word for word a few years ago.

The only thing I'd add though - as much as being a compulsory geek or nerd as well as what the world thinks of it really sucks, we could still both have far worse problems and when I really take a look at most people's problems mine do seem like small potatoes.

Your right of course in that this doesn't change the fact that I could have been an NT version of myself but, with the way this world works, I have to wonder how useful it is to remind myself of it as the chances of having it all - for anyone - are very slim.

You know, I don't know how anybody can really have an opinion on this. I've only been me. This is the way I've always been. If being "cured" or normal or whatever meant I wouldn't have the problems I do then I supposed I'd do it.

I think alot of us would have mixed feelings over it. I think for me, since mine is so borderline, for awhile I wondered if I really had it. Either way, it doesn't make a big difference. Unlike many here I don't identify myself or label myself by my AS (I'm not even consciously aware of having it 99% of the time). I wouldn't be ashamed if I do/did have it, but I'd hate for people to get the wrong idea.

Yeah I wondered the same thing for myself as well. If I was really misdiagnosed with. But if I really have it, then it must be very mild. But yet it still effects me. I often feel I don't have it despite being blind to body language and social cues. I can only pick up on the obvious stuff.

That's interesting. I think we're all more conscious of certain traits. Like for me it wasn't so much those, but my obsessions (when I get into something, I really get INTO it. I live and breathe it, and think about it most of the time). But my lack of some classic Aspie traits does make me wonder at times. Yet I seem to definitely have others. No one's really told me how many boxes you have to tick in order to 'qualify' so to speak. But if I were to go by my overall intuition/feeling I would say I have at least some degree of it. And I do identify alot with people who have it.