I no longer believe what I wrote in the cartoon. I have no right to call myself an Aspie.
makuranososhi wrote:
I hope you do not let the opinions of a vocal minority dissuade you from pursuit of your goal.
It is no minority. Google "Asperger's self-diagnosed." What comes up first?
Study: Most Self-Diagnosed Asperger's Patients Just as*holes. A cruel joke? Sure, but that's the perception that's out there. People see Asperger's as an excuse for social rudeness, or personality weakness, or just a desire to be part of a special group. It is the new emo, or the new ADD, or the latest catch-all for those who fail at life. Who among us would
not want to be self-diagnosed?
My claim "I'm an Aspie" in absence of a doctor's note is worthless. There is nothing I can say when people challenge me. I have two choices. I can dig deep into my savings to pay for that diagnosis, or I can keep my damn mouth shut. Neither option appeals to me. It is enough of a crime to be quirky and an outcast, but it's much worse to claim it's because of a disorder without knowing for sure.
I feel more confused than ever. I have been an emotional wreck for days. I had found real peace, thinking I finally understood myself, and now that has disappeared. Maybe all I wanted was an excuse, a label that fits. Maybe I am just another as*hole.