I have lived alone since 2004, initially in a room in a shared student house, then a studio, and now a flat. I must admit, it is a bit of a mixed situations. The positives are that I can watch what I want, eat when I want, have sole use of the bathroom and only have my own energy to deal with. The outright negatives are that I find it very difficult to keep up with bills and cleaning. I just seem to find the prospect of cleaning so many things so overwhelming then get frustrated with myself for being 'lazy'.
I also struggle with self discipline in the sense that left to my own devices, I will stay up most of the night reading things online or posting and then end up sleeping the day away. That one is a double edged sword as I hated it when my bedtime was dictated by someone else. I also have the double edged sword of needing a lot of space to myself, yet sometimes feeling horribly lonely and stuck in my own head.
I think to survive alone, you have to be fairly self regulated and in control of meltdowns as putting big holes in walls or having screaming fits tends to not go down too well with neighbours or landlords.
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I am diagnosed as a human being.
12 Nov 2014, 9:35 pm
