izzeme wrote:
the difference can lie in the way you answer the questions; i have done several tests on a few tests to try this out.
if i answer from the 'internal' me, or how i feel, i score in the top-levels of AS; but if i answer from the 'external' me, how i act, i get a low score, that makes me only slightly quirky, due to the methods i have developed to cope with and/or hide my AS.
I've noticed this about myself. Many of my most autistic traits are hidden. For example, if I have a meltdown, it will usually be internal. Externally, it will seem more of a shutdown -- I just withdraw, don't say anything. Or I might explode in rage later, when I'm alone. So too with repetitive speech. If I'm on my own, I'll often repeat phrases to myself, as if I'm a stuck record. But when with others, I don't do that. If I stim, it's something like foot tapping, which is socially acceptable in a way that say rocking is not.
I'm thinking that I learned to hide these behaviors, probably after being told they were undesirable when I was a child.
12 Aug 2016, 2:21 pm
