It's confirmed: I must get undiagnosed: how?

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Have you done this test? http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt108034.html
What does it reveal?

considering what your family and ex-girlfriend said, and the fact that you rarely had real empathy, and the fact that you don't feel the need to follow laws, and the fact you have superficial charm with women (yet flip-flop and toss them aside), have you considered the possibility of sociopathy? here are the criteria:


A) There is a pervasive pattern of disregard for and violation of the rights of others occurring since age 15 years, as indicated by three or more of the following:

-failure to conform to social norms with respect to lawful behaviors as indicated by repeatedly performing acts that are grounds for arrest;
(keying cars)

-deception, as indicated by repeatedly lying, use of aliases, or conning others for personal profit or pleasure;
(i believe you have mentioned compulsive lying in an older thread)

-impulsiveness or failure to plan ahead;
(you have been evicted from your place of residence and are having difficulty with planning for your future as to your education)

-irritability and aggressiveness, as indicated by repeated physical fights or assaults;
(you have mentioned periodic rages that last days or weeks)

-reckless disregard for safety of self or others;
(this might not apply, except for the reckless driving)

-consistent irresponsibility, as indicated by repeated failure to sustain consistent work behavior or honor financial obligations;
(again, regarding the lease)

-lack of remorse, as indicated by being indifferent to or rationalizing having hurt, mistreated, or stolen from another;
(you said you lack empathy and don't seem to care that you keyed those cars. you also alluded to treating your ex-girlfriend badly and instead of wanting to improve yourself, you started a thread indicating that you think you'd rather just get into a relationship with someone who abused you right back)

B) The individual is at least age 18 years.
(yes)

C) There is evidence of conduct disorder with onset before age 15 years.
(i don't know about this)

D) The occurrence of antisocial behavior is not exclusively during the course of schizophrenia or a manic episode.
(i don't know about this either)


sociopaths are not all horrible monsters or anything. there is a very good list of criteria here as well:

http://www.mcafee.cc/Bin/sb.html

and a blog i follow over here:

http://www.sociopathworld.com/

something to keep in mind is that sociopaths are exceedingly common - maybe as common as 1/30 people! so it is statistically far likelier than any other diagnosis on that basis alone.

yeah, that makes sense - sociopathy is too static.

OP ,do you have other BDP symptoms like not feeling like you need sleep for periods of time? That symptom in particular isn;t required for diagnosis of a hypomanic episode but again a psych prof told me that this particular symptom is good for distinguishing BDP from similar disorders. You said a lot of your symptoms are episodic, and also you have periods of extremely high and then extremely low self esteem, which could also be indicative of BDP.


Hypomanic Episode criteria:

A distinct period of persistently elevated, expansive, or irritable mood, lasting throughout at least 4 days, that is clearly different from the usual nondepressed mood.

During the period of mood disturbance, three (or more) of the following symptoms have persisted (four if the mood is only irritable) and have been present to a significant degree:
inflated self-esteem or grandiosity
decreased need for sleep (e.g., feels rested after only 3 hours of sleep)
more talkative than usual or pressure to keep talking
flight of ideas or subjective experience that thoughts are racing
distractibility (i.e., attention too easily drawn to unimportant or irrelevant external stimuli)
increase in goal-directed activity (either socially, at work or school, or sexually) or psychomotor agitation
excessive involvement in pleasurable activities that have a high potential for painful consequences (e.g., the person engages in unrestrained buying sprees, sexual indiscretions, or foolish business investments)
The episode is associated with an unequivocal change in functioning that is uncharacteristic of the person when not symptomatic.
The disturbance in mood and the change in functioning are observable by others.
The episode is not severe enough to cause marked impairment in social or occupational functioning, or to necessitate hospitalization, and there are no psychotic features.
The symptoms are not due to the direct physiological effects of a substance (e.g., a drug of abuse, a medication, or other treatment) or a general medical condition (e.g., hyperthyroidism).
Note: Hypomanic-like episodes that are clearly caused by somatic antidepressant treatment (e.g., medication, electroconvulsive therapy, light therapy) should not count toward a diagnosis of Bipolar II Disorder.

^^^
Okay, well Bipolar and Borderline have some overlapping features. I'm not sure about how regular the cycles have to be in BPD.

So, which of these would explain my superhumanly keen insight into people's weaknesses?

I've also been told I have an amazing ability to pinpoint tiny flaws in behavior, speech, and even clothing that others are only subconsciously aware of and use it to reconstruct an (usually very accurate) negative history of that person.

If someone asks "why do people perceive me as X?" or "why do people treat me like X?" I will be able to tell right away from something as simple as a head shot, or better yet, a recording of them talking. And I've had lots of confirmation that my perceptions in these areas are deadly accurate.

The problem is, I have many flaws due to my NLD, horrible executive function, depression, and identity confusion, so I am just as harsh on myself as I am on others. I will beat myself up--mentally and sometimes physically--like you have never seen before.

I also have a massive jealously and envy complex. I'm a guy, but even seeing someone of the opposite sex who is well-dressed or has expensive clothing or jewelry, throws me into a rage (I grew up poor and don't have a ton of fancy clothing). Of course, it's worse with envy of the same gender.

So which PD is this consistent with?