who here is lousy at dealing with anger?

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@ skydz

Analyzing things alone at quiet has been helpful. Talking to a therapist too. He tells me sometimes "these are things that can be said, addressed". I care less about lots of things, I'm more relaxed.

Yet, I absorb things like a sponge. I think we all do more or less. Spending time outside: noise, people, lights really are draining even when it's positive experience. I need alone time.

If listening to someone's misery, absorbing it, it can feel like anger but it's not. Right I'm literally nauseous from it.

The thing is not to let it build up. Express things more like a quieter constant flow. Not easy when you feel things that way, but not impossible to regulate better.

I picked the first option but can I still have a yummy sherbet? I used to throw things and knock chairs onto the ground when I was really mad until a few years ago(around when I turned 12). Now I internalize all my anger and just get really pissy for a while. I think this contributes to my everlasting depression that seems to get worse and worse.

I can't remember what it is called but that reminds me of the disorder where one is not aware of one's emotions.

seems in this hellworld, the negatives always have way more power than the positives and it only takes a bit of negative to ruin the long and sustained work of the positive.

that is why the eastern religions [hindu and such] call this a "hellworld."

This is for Aunt Blabby. I hope you like it. I truly love this genre of music. I remember seeing all of these on the drive-in screens for the first time they came out. The way they all used the vocals as an instrument really speaks to me. All those spaghetti westerns were and still are so much fun. So grand.

I was watching TV and the 'Modelo Beer' commercial came on and I thought Auntblabby. had to get up and get it posted.

Now, back to my regularly scheduled viewing

thank you for that I must find out who that female vocalist was.

Not too sure what to put really, after thinking about it, i think when i was younger <13 i used to get angry alot only because of peoples treatment, then i remember one day in class before the teacher came in i was standing at a desk talking to someone and someone decided to kick me in the ass, it was at that moment i thought not to react for the first time, and carried on talking and the kicking got harder, but still didnt react, in the end he just got soo frustrated with not getting a reaction he actually looked a bit of an idiot infront of the class.. So from that day on, i either dont react and internalize those feelings to the best of my ability or avoid any confrontation at all!... As i got a little older this seemed to work quit well, but then the downside was that people would then try to wind you up and get a rise from you because they have not seen you react in an angry manner and will keep doing so untill they get what they want, when i confront them about this they say that it isnt normal not to, not react and they were only doing it because they wanted to see me react.. If anything i got angry because of how stupid and illogical it was for someone to do that!... These days the anger seems to have turned more to a sadness and confusion mixed with frustration... but when on the very few odd occasions i have got angry ( once in years recently) is was only because i was dealing with someone that wouldnt give me my space and constantly pestered me till i ran out of all options and blew my top at him, but inside it wasnt so much anger as it was i tried all approaches to tell him to give me space and he wouldnt, so shouted as another way to get my point across... So no, i dont get angry much at all, but i think i have converted that to sadness, frustration and confusion!... Anyone else deal with it this way? or feel that way?...