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21 Jul 2016, 7:37 pm

...Well , it was more than " not popuar " - more " disliked/tormented ":-( .


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OK. Not many children were real popular.


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kaspermedmusen wrote:
One night (not too long ago actually) I was out by myself having a mental breakdown. I started hitting the wall so my hands started bleeding. At one point I screamed "Kill me then" but in Swedish. It was not directed to anyone, I just had a mental breakdown.

I thought I was alone because it was night-time but suddenly two children around 10 yo came bicycling and asked me how I was doing. I just said I am sick leave me alone. They said no and wanted to talk but I did not want to talk to them about my problems. I just said One day you will understand. And then I ended the discussion and walked away.


I used to see it as being a child is an obligation and that life ends around the age of 16. Yes, I can still laugh and have a good time but it is very rarely. When being a child everything was "new" and exciting. Now everything is not exciting anymore but boring and sad.

Because children view everything from a non-judgemental angle it was possible for even the weird children to be accepted. When the child gets older it adopts has distinguish normal from abnormal and thus becoming more judgemental to everything that differs from the norm.
I feel that life ends at 13, but maybe it's just an irrational belief of mine that I have because I just graduated and I'm only learning how it's like not to be bullied for the first time.



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22 Jul 2016, 3:33 am

johnnyh wrote:
Being a little professor as a kid: "You are going places kid, so what if you don't have any friends, you're too advanced for them".

Being one as an adult: "Oh god will you just shaddup?!"


I personally wish I could be more of a little professor like I was as a kid instead of the vapid, sex-obsessed Valley boy that I have been for the past six years.



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22 Jul 2016, 5:24 am

I realised at around 12-14 that I could no longer act silly in public (unless it's age-approriate for a teenager). I was told how embarrassing I was, which implied that I no longer looked ok to behave like a little kid, instead I had to behave more like a teenager. Being a teenager was difficult because some immature behaviour was acceptable, so I had to learn the hard way which was which. But by age 15 I knew how to behave more appropriately, in public.


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23 Jul 2016, 8:51 pm

aja675 wrote:
kaspermedmusen wrote:
One night (not too long ago actually) I was out by myself having a mental breakdown. I started hitting the wall so my hands started bleeding. At one point I screamed "Kill me then" but in Swedish. It was not directed to anyone, I just had a mental breakdown.

I thought I was alone because it was night-time but suddenly two children around 10 yo came bicycling and asked me how I was doing. I just said I am sick leave me alone. They said no and wanted to talk but I did not want to talk to them about my problems. I just said One day you will understand. And then I ended the discussion and walked away.


I used to see it as being a child is an obligation and that life ends around the age of 16. Yes, I can still laugh and have a good time but it is very rarely. When being a child everything was "new" and exciting. Now everything is not exciting anymore but boring and sad.

Because children view everything from a non-judgemental angle it was possible for even the weird children to be accepted. When the child gets older it adopts has distinguish normal from abnormal and thus becoming more judgemental to everything that differs from the norm.
I feel that life ends at 13, but maybe it's just an irrational belief of mine that I have because I just graduated and I'm only learning how it's like not to be bullied for the first time.

I only know of two existences:
a happy and childish life wherein your peers know no evil and see no evil, and an unhappy adolescent/young adult existence where everyone else is judgmental. Therefore, I have no idea of what it's like to be happy when your age is no longer on the clock.



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24 Jul 2016, 8:36 am

aja675 wrote:
aja675 wrote:
kaspermedmusen wrote:
One night (not too long ago actually) I was out by myself having a mental breakdown. I started hitting the wall so my hands started bleeding. At one point I screamed "Kill me then" but in Swedish. It was not directed to anyone, I just had a mental breakdown.

I thought I was alone because it was night-time but suddenly two children around 10 yo came bicycling and asked me how I was doing. I just said I am sick leave me alone. They said no and wanted to talk but I did not want to talk to them about my problems. I just said One day you will understand. And then I ended the discussion and walked away.


I used to see it as being a child is an obligation and that life ends around the age of 16. Yes, I can still laugh and have a good time but it is very rarely. When being a child everything was "new" and exciting. Now everything is not exciting anymore but boring and sad.

Because children view everything from a non-judgemental angle it was possible for even the weird children to be accepted. When the child gets older it adopts has distinguish normal from abnormal and thus becoming more judgemental to everything that differs from the norm.
I feel that life ends at 13, but maybe it's just an irrational belief of mine that I have because I just graduated and I'm only learning how it's like not to be bullied for the first time.

I only know of two existences:
a happy and childish life wherein your peers know no evil and see no evil, and an unhappy adolescent/young adult existence where everyone else is judgmental. Therefore, I have no idea of what it's like to be happy when your age is no longer on the clock.
It was for seven years in a row that I got made fun of, and I'm really worn down now especially because it just ended several months ago.