HiccupHaddock
Yellow-bellied Woodpecker
Joined: 11 Mar 2022
Age: 47
Gender: Female
Posts: 69
Location: UK
09 Apr 2022, 8:16 am
09 Apr 2022, 10:35 am
"Temple Grandin," Attributed Much
of Her Success in Life to A Mother Who
Stood By Her Side, Gave Her Love, And
Believed In Her; It's True,
The Environment
of Love We Are
In From Young Or
Not, Will Make A Huge Difference
on Whether or Not We Will Meet Our
Human Potentials in Special Ways of Being
Unique to our Own Ways of Being, "Seeing,"
And Doing Our Own Brand New UniVerses Within
Every Breath of Life We Take; Whether it is Less or More
Than Inhaling Peace Exhaling LoVE iN JoY oF LiGHT For All
Giving, Sharing, Caring, Healing All With Least Harm Always Now...
All of Existence Is A Spectrum;
All of Existence Is Still Potential to Come;
For One Who Is Told From Young There Are No
Limits to What They Might Do And Become, Oh How
That Will Make A Difference For Those Who Only Hear Limits in Life,
Or Even Worse, Are Neglected And Abused By Not Only Peers Yet Family too...
There Are Folks Who Spend Their Lives Doing Their Best to Rain on Other Folk's Parades...
There Are Folks Who Spend Their Lives Protecting The Marginalized And Different From Harm...
There Are Folks Who Visit in Dreams And Sprinkle Pixie Dust to Help Others Bring Their Dreams to Fruition Now...
i Appreciate Clouds
As Much As Sunshine
As Clouds Are What
Bring Works of Art in Skies to Life
As Every Sunset And Sunrise is A Work of Art New
As Every Flower Blooms Differently As Each Human
Does, Whether Wilting Old or Flowering New Clouds
Help Us Appreciate Sunshine
As Rain Brings Us Life to Be...
i Appreciate the DarK Experiences of my Life
The Places That Prepared me to See How Much of Existence
is Miracle For Every Breath i Take As It's True That is my Special
Ability of Label
of Autism Or Not;
As if Not Finally Failing
The Expectations of Modern
Society And Increasing Demands
on Both Social Empathic And Mechanical
Cognition All At Once As Humans Are Evolved
To Focus on One Task, Like Capturing Prey and
Being Mindfully Aware Enough From Head to Toe
And With a Larger Picture Eye on the Environment to
Escape
Harm
From Predators too;
Nah, Without the Demands
Of Modern Culture, i Would Have
Likely Never Been Diagnosed With
Anything At All Yet The Dude That
Smiled and Made Most Folks Happy
Assisting Others From the General Public...
My Mother Said When i Was A Child i Had Open
Arms For Everyone Without Discrimination, Indeed That
Is Special Ability Enough at that Point Innately By Birth
And Nurturing By Mother of Course; Lord Knows Difference
Between
me Being
Incarnate Love
Now Most All Minutes
of the Day or Some Child
of A Lesser God Than Love...
So What Has that Gift; That Special Ability
Brought me in Life; Yes, A Life of Fearlessness
As There is No Room For LoVE iN Fear When it Comes in Human Form...
So What Has That Brought Others; A Whole Lot of Joy NoW iN Life As i Fear
No Naysayers like the Ones Who Suggested, i Looked Ridiculous When i Started
my Autotelic Flow of Meditation And Contemplating Life in Public Dance; As It's True
i had No Lessons For Dance; A Novice, i Allowed Intuition to Teach me Each and Every Move...
i Suppose We Can Also Let Others
Judge Whether We Are Special or Not;
Yet It's True When We Generate Our Own
Happiness, Otherwise Known as 'The Kingdom
of Heaven Within,' Nirvana, Bliss, Samadhi, Tao, Prana,
Kundalini Rising; And True More Than Even A 'Common' Feeling Indeed
The Metaphors Vary Cross-Culturally Yet Obviously Studying Comparative
Philosophies And Religions Many Folks Have Attained Within This Special Place of Being;
Yet It's True That is Unique to Each Individual; And Two Folks May Be Sitting Next to Each
Other In Some Kind of Public Transportation; Or on a Park Bench, Or Wherever, And one Person
May Be Living in an Invisible
Hell While the Other Lives in
An Invisible Heaven As Special
As Special Gets Totally Invisible to
The Person Sitting in A Hell of Their Co-Creation
too Depending On Nature And Nurture too; As Life Surely
isn't Fair
As i've
Seen the
Dungeon With
a Life Threat of
19 Medical Disorders,
Including the Worst Pain
Known to Humankind for 66
Months From Wake to Sleep; Yes,
Type Two Trigeminal Neuralgia Identified
Sub-Clinically As the Suicide Disease that No
Drug would
Touch for me...
Yet You See That And
Periods of Deep And Dark
Depression Off and On Through
The Ages of 19 Thru 21; And Basically
My Peers in School Suggesting i was too
Weak and Strange Acting and Looking to Exist
And Losing A Child to Only 51 Days of Pain; And So
Many Other Struggles that We all Encounter in Life; All Those
Clouds Only Made me appreciate Sunshine Even More And When
i Finally
Saw How
Great A Gift
All Those Clouds
Are i Became Twilight
A Balance of DarK and LiGHT
Loving All Of Existence As is Unconditionally;
Anyway Empirically Speaking That kind Of Attitude
Leads to Measurable Parts of Life, Like Public Dancing
16,344 Miles in 103 Months; With Viral Videos Documenting
Assessments From the General Public Like Living Legend, Hero,
Famous, And If You Haven't Seen me, You Must Not Get Out Much
as i am Practically
Everywhere in Real
Life Then and Still Now
in my Metro Area, hehe...
It's True i Get Around Online too
Globally Responding Poetically in Free
Verse in An Anthology of Longest EPiC Long
Form Poetry to the Tune of 'The SonG oF mY SoUL'
Measurable at 10.3 MiLLioN Words During the Course
of the Public Dance for 103 Months Now too; Additionally,
Approaching 62 Years Old Now on 6.6.2020, i Am Still Practically
As Strong in Leg Strength as An Orangutan As Yes, Science Shows
That Humans Who Move Enough And Adapt to Resistance in their Environment
Can And Do Become That Strong as Yes, i Still Leg Press up to 1520 Pounds at the
Military Gym i Work Out At; Noting i used to be known Again As the Weakest Last Kid
Picked
on
Sports
Teams in School;
And Do Note, i Still
Don't Do Team Sports,
Even Though Toward the
End of my Career With the
Federal Government After Earning
3 College Degrees all at Once With
3 Part Time Jobs With that Full School Work Load
At Once After my Stint of A Non-Verbal Child Who Couldn't
Speak Until i Am Four Back in 1964; True Towards The End of
my Federal Government Career Doing That for 25 Years out of
my 33 Years of Jobs for Pay, i Was An Athletic Director For a Military
Installation, Not
For My Expertise
for that Position; Yet
Seen as A Valuable Commodity
For my Information Technology
And Financial Management Skills
That i largely Learned on my Own Away From Work...
And Away From School too as My Degrees Were in
Health Science, Social Sciences Interdisciplinary, And
Anthropology as i Was More Interested in Learning to Be Human
Than Becoming A Human
Business Machine, Computer,
Or Engineer to Keep Parts Oiled
in the Machine of Society then As
True They Used to Have Signs in Classes
And Computer Labs that Said Get Out and
About and Do Human; Beware, Don't Lose Your
Humanity
As Just
A Cog in
The Machine of Society
As Even Science Shows Now
That Mechanical Cognition Activities
Done in Exclusion to Social Empathic
Human Activities Withers Away Our Humanity For Real this way...
i Didn't Learn About that until i Came to the 'Wrong Planet' Seeing
How i might Change my Autism Quotient Score to Lower than 45;
And my Emotional Intelligent Quotient in the Mid-50's then to A Different
Score too; And It's true in that old Personality Test, INTJ Was Getting A Bit
Boring to me; (And Yes, Through An Autotelic Flow of Free Verse Poetry
And Free Dance, i Changed All That in The Summer of 2013, in Terms of AQ
Score to 11; EQ Score to 95; And INTJ to ENFP; Yet of Course, With Experience
i Can And Will Switch Hit on Demand With Relative Free Will Still Now For Real)
It's True Spending
The Last 5 Years at
Work Behind a Screen
Still Responsible For So
Many Employee's Behaviors on
The Job Ranging From Over 30 to
Over 130, Depending on if i was Filling in
For the Director of the Department too; Increased
My AQ Score Greatly as it Was only 32, When i Worked
More with the Military and General Public Than When i Became
Glued to A Computer Screen;
Yes, Environment Counts in Model
of Human Being Vehicle And Vessel
As Well as Make of Human Being Now too...
So Eventually, Not on 'Purpose'; Yet Just A Gift Within
Deeper For What Some Folks Religiously Might Describe as 'Logos'
The 'Dance/Song' of my more Right Hemisphere Social-Empathic-Artistic-Spiritual
Human Potential Came into Existence For me in the Art of Dance And Song Free
in Poetry i Started
to BREaTHE Then
And Still Now Flowing
Effortlessly in a 'Wu Wei'
Ease of Dance And Song in Poetry Now...
Yet it's True, it Took Several Million Words
Over A Course of Around 33 Months on 'this
Internet Site' Discussing Most Everything in the
World in A Very Concrete And Approved English
Spelling and Grammar Way of Communicating; Yeah,
in my Underwear Behind my Computer Shut-in, in my
Home With Debilitating Illness; Laser Focused Debating the
"Autism Speaks
Conspiracy
Theorists Back Then;"
HAha, Folks 'Here' Accused me
of Actually Working for the Organization Yet
Just At Home Trying to Get my Mind off the
Suicide Disease, Not Knowing in that Entire 66 Months
Whether i Could Survive Another Second in Life; Here's
'The Thing':
Life isn't Fair;
When even the
Memory of A Smile
is Gone And there is No
Reference Point if 'You' Ever Felt
A Smile in Your Life; All That's Left
Is the Will to Survive, Mostly Generated
By Our Oldest Reptile Brain to Eat, Drink,
Find Shelter, And Reproduce; And You Lose
All Your Fear And All Your Hope You Just Take the
Next Breath Without Any Peace or Love At All; Yet When
You Gain the Ability to Inhale Peace And Exhale Love Again;
It's All Heaven
And You (me) Just
Give It All away Now
For Free As You Find
Yourself Naked, Enough, Whole,
And Complete; Not Everyone Goes to Hell
Within; Not Everyone Gets Out;
i Had a Nephew We Just Buried
Yesterday at 30 Years-old Who Didn't Make it
Out; He Was a Human too; His Was Name Was Cody;
Not By Blood Relation, Through my Wife's Blood Yet
Just another
Veteran
of HeLL ON EArTH;
It's True i get 'Mythed' off too,
When i Hear ignorant Folks Say All you
Have to Do to Get to Heaven is say A Magic
Recipe of Romans 10:9; to Avoid Getting Burned Forever
After Death And Wait For Heaven in A Dirt Nap After Death;
It's True, i don't
Want People to
Have to Go to Hell Now;
And i Surely Hope Not Everyone
Has to Go to HeLL ON EartH Within
To Find Every Breath A Miracle of Heaven Now...
Does this
Make
me
Special;
Special Is As Special Does;
Without A Grain of Sand Now, Still,
It is Impossible to Hold Up Mountains
of Human Love; Yes, There are Many More
Than One; Occasionally, i meet them in my
Global Travels As an 'Avatar' online Squeezing
All 245 Pounds of me And More of my Soul
Through this Fiber Optic Cable at the Speed of Love...
And It's True, i Appreciate Folks Who Do Their Best to
Rain on the Parades of Others As Those Who Continue
to Spread Pixie Dust in Dreams of 'Lost Boys and or Girls'
To Help
Bring their
Dreams to Fruition Now;
Not Much Different than the
Gift My Mother Gave me Unconditionally
From Love As She Was the Essence of
Human Incarnate Love Then too; Yet
Her Name was only
Helen that means Light;
And it's True She Brought
Both DarK and LiGHT into the
World As Well All Do; As i surely
Still Do too As i Understand Fully Now DarK Brings LiGHT;
Every New Breath is the Opportunity to Create A New UniVerse
Within And Whether or Not We Want to or Not We Do As Reality is Change...
i Choose to
Staycation in
Heaven Within
Yet it Doesn't Exist
Without Every New Color of DarK and LiGHT...
We Found the Letter Linked Below, in my Mother's Home After my
Mother Passed Away on February 22nd, 2017, After Unexpectedly
And Fittingly,
Going to Her
Hospice Death
Bed Suddenly
on Valentine's Day of 2017...
She Wrote it on my 33rd Birthday,
And It's True it Took me Until 53 Years-Old to Actually
Do it And About 44 Months After That to Actually Find it And Read it...
It's True,
It took that
Long to Make
it All Come True...
As 'They' Say, "There are more things in heaven
and Earth, Horatio, / Than are dreamt of in your philosophy [science]."
My Mother's Special Ability Was her Belief That If You Truly Believe, Things Will
Work Out Okay...
It Took me
53 Years,
And i Finally
Inherited Her
Gift After Being a 'Matrix
Architect' i Finally Gained
The Balance of 'The Oracle' too...
Meh, Balancing Yin and Yang; Nothing
And All Things
New Under
A Balance
of Day and
Night DarK And LiGHT
And Clouds That Make Most
Beautiful Sunsets And Sunrises New With
A Little Special Ability Help From Sun Above Below...
Hehe, Usually i'm Also
'Too Big For Most Folks'
to 'See' and Hear' When i Start
Talking About All my Special Interests...
Such is the Condition;
Such is the Gift;
Such is the Ability; Without Folks
Like me/Us There Would Be No Sistine
Chapel Paintings, Or Moonlight Sonatas
or the
Tesla
Company
Either and
Likely Still Coming
Trillionaires too; However,
There Are Also Might Not Be
Anyone Who Visited All of Dante's
Rings of Hell And More and Actually Came Back
to Describe the Difference Between Real Hell and Heaven Now;
Trust me or Not, You Don't Want
to Go Where i've Been And
You Probably Would
Like to come to
the place i Exist
Now Yet of course
Only if you Have Been
to the Places i've Been; As This
Applies Uniquely to Almost All of Us...
It's Always A Special Ability to Bring Folks
Up and Help Them See Where they Currently Are...
Jesus F in Christ, Look at All the Lifeless Hot And Cold Rocks Above
Isn't This Special Enough; Yes, Naked, Enough, Whole, Complete This Miracle of Breath;
It's True, my Only
Son Ryan Along With
The Gift of A Smile He Never Experienced
At all Never Able to Breathe on His Now Might
Shed Some
Tears for
This Miracle
of Existence if He Could Have then...
What's Special is Subjective And All About Perspective...
Other than that No One Rains on my Parade Now, No
Matter How Hard
they try...
It's What Happens
When Rain Drops Approach
The Source of Sunshine;
Poof, They Evaporate Like
They Never Existed At all...
Never the Less, We Still Need
'Water' to
Drink...
'Devil'
(Adversaries)
Be in Heaven too...
Yet Indeed, Just A Visitor, Rain Drops Are...
And Of Course Sunshine too As DarK Meets LiGHT...
And TWiLiGHT
Continues to
Exist Eternally New Now...
Perhaps i'm Just a 'Puzzle Piece;'
Yet i am What i am And Am i Be...
PseudointellectualHorse
Pileated woodpecker
Joined: 1 Nov 2005
Gender: Male
Posts: 188
Location: Pasadena, California
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