DJRnold wrote:
The advice that I've gotten so far is probably going to be helpful, but does anybody have a different opinion or anything to add to an existing theory or suggestion?
yes. i think there IS a chance you are getting stupider. (and yeah, it was funny you said stupider, i appreciated it.)
when i was a kid, things were easy, i was that scary-smart that freaks out the adults, scored high on IQ tests, school was easy, blah blah... the first time i had a passing worry that i was not a smart as i used to be was prob still in elementary school, but i didn't start to really notice and have problems until i was about 18 or so.
the same stuff you are mentioning. reading was suddenly HARDER. infomation was not sticking in my brain like it used to, i couldn't GRASP concepts as quickly. unfortunately, i am 29 and this has not reversed, i still feel a slow slide down toward the bottom of the stupid barrel...
so here is my personal theory- yes, perhaps some of the concentration stuff could be explained by anxiety/stress like other people in this post have suggested- but i actually think it has more to do with empathy and self-awareness...
my stupidity seems to be correlated to my attempts to understand other people, look at their emotions, put myself in their shoes. the more effort i put into "playing human," and the more i realized my differences were not all good ones, the harder traditional learning became. and once i thought these thoughts, i couldn't unthink them, so there was no going back. maybe it pushed me past critical mass, just too many possibilites to consider at once, and i forgot how to get back into that zone of absolute attention to a single thing- impaired my singlemindedness by trying to connect to humanity. i don't know... i feel silly trying to explain it because i realize that my explainations sound, well... stupid.
Whoa, totally recognize that, though I wouldn't have had the guts to try to explain it...
About the time I started my efforts to 'normalize' myself (19) I started losing brain power (first showed up as that exact kind of trouble reading). Some seemed due to added mental tasks (thinking about how to interact etc), but on a deeper level it's like a certain kind of focus or singular 'state of mind' got lost.
I've heard that savants sometimes lose their savant skills when their social ability improves. Maybe it's something like that.