danandlouie wrote:
++++SPAZZ++++ once i had a pain so severe that it dropped me on a sidewalk at a shopping mall. i was sweating profusely and vomited uncontrollably while lying in a fetal position. so, lots of pain. i begged people who were hurrying by to call for help...call the police....call an ambulance......call anyone. no one called. no one stopped to help me. ok, so i look pretty bad----been run over by a drunk driver and mangled in a multi-rollover high speed auto crash--leading to being dead 4 times. but still, couldn't someone have just called SOMEBODY. i had urinated on myself and a wave of pain and nausea almost made me pass out.....and then suddenly started easing. it was then that i realized that i had passed thru a kidney stone. incorporated it in a sculpture. i've never known love from a human. honest. do i hate people? bet your a.. i do. do i want what happened to me to happen to you, so you'll know what it's like to be completely alone, to wake up in the middle of sleep screaming at what happened to you as a child. no, i don't want any of that to happen to you. just don't judge other people when you DO NOT HAVE A CLUE about someone else's life
I can relate a similar experience in terms of people not caring about my fate. I once fell down between a train and the train track when getting off the train and as I stood on the track I expected loads of people to suddenly come to my aid to pull me back up onto the platform but it never happened. They all just stood there on the platform staring down at me as if I were a lunatic of the highest order; some kind of mad attention-seeker!
As I struggled to pull myself back up onto the platform I'll never forget this one young man just glaring at me as if I'd done the stupidest thing ever. His look of utter contempt will stay with me for life. As I was walking away, suddenly feeling really weak and shaky as I realised how I could have potentially been injured or even killed if the train had moved while I was on the track, one woman said weakly, 'Are you ok' and I just replied 'Yes thanks' with what I hoped was the right amount of contempt right back at the lot of them! So I understand completely what it is to feel you have discovered just how despicable other human beings can be! Never blithely assume your fellow humans will act in a humane way towards you
ever; just be glad if there is even one amongst them who might just rise to the occasion but don't hold your breath!