What aspects of your Aspergers do you hate?

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The fact that I don't feel safe.

The net result of my difficulties is that I can't compete and operate in the world as NT's do, and even as many Aspies manage to, therefore I don't feel secure about my future. I constantly feel threatened and insecure financially, for instance, as I've not been able to maintain working. I also have such trouble interacting and communicating face to face that I generally need help dealing with the various agencies of "the system". If I had no help, I sometimes wonder what would happen to me.

So for me, the worst part is feeling unsafe, insecure. I can handle 'loneliness".

I know what I hate about it.

Everything in this world what I hate are the things what I can't escape from.

For example, I hate toddlers, teenagers, being out alone in public, looking for employment, snowy winters, colds and tummy bugs, loud noise, shopping....... All these things are impossible to escape, unless I stay indoors for the rest of my life and go on incapability benefits, which I can't do because I'm able enough to work and so can't get out of not working. It's not that I'm lazy, because I work voluntry at a charity shop and I go in every day and I love it there, but I'm reluctant to get a job because a) it will break my routine, and b) I don't like meeting new people in case they're not as nice and friendly as the people at the chairty shop are. I hear NTs get picked on a work, so there's mighty chance I will.

I can't escape toddlers because it's temporarily natural for them to throw a temper tantrum in public.

I can't escape teenagers because it's temporaily natural for most of them to gather in the street and intimidate loners like me

I can't escape being out alone in public because I need to be independant

I can't escape looking for employment because I'll be chucked off job-seekers and have nothing to live on

I can't escape snowy winters because there's always going to be a winter every year, and lately the north wind has become popular in Britain so it encourages snow and more freezes

I can't escape colds and tummy bugs because they are always going around and people are always entering my house with them without telling me, so I not know to keep away then suffer the pain afterwards

I can't escape loud noise because most things seem to be designed to make an ugly racket

I can't escape shopping because I need to try on clothes, and I get criticised if I don't go shopping ever

That's what I don't like about having AS. All NTs find things they don't like difficult to endure, but everything I don't like takes part in every day life, so I have no choice but to endure it, and it's sometimes mighty difficult to put up with at times.

No wonder I'm always angry and frustrated all the time! I wish NTs would understand this.

I hate being clumsy. I like music and have some ability at the piano and guitar but early on hit a glass ceiling in terms of dexterity. Dancing? Better wear your steel-toed shoes if you're with me, actually I don't try any more. I have very little sense of where my body is in time or space. My other Aspie traits don't bother me too much and I have a wickedly perverse sense of humor which my friends enjoy.

Multi-modal processing and being unable to do multiple things at once, especially under pressure (the reason why I find driving tough, it relies heavy on your reaction time).

Having friends drift away from me too easily because I become friends with individual people rather than groups, and it's discouraging. Also, maintaining friendships and balancing that with my antisocial side that needs a lot of time alone to destress.

Obsessions with people. This is a big one.

What you are complaining about is true of everyone. Nothing in their lives works properly AND consistently. That means things go wrong from time to time. Welcome to reality.

Here is the real kicker. No matter how well you do things and plan them, eventually you (and everyone else) will DIE. Ain't that a b***h?

ruveyn

The only thing that really bug me is that I have big problems with facial recognition. I'm ok if I'm expecting to see someone and can usually pick them out from a crowd fairly well, but if I'm not not anticipating to see someone I don't notice them at all unless they're standing right in front of me and clearly motioning to me some form of greeting (this goes for my parents and husband too).

I just find it quite embarrassing, as I think it may make me appear stand-offish.

I hate the dififculty I have with facial expressions talking face to face with people.

I dislike the fact I dont understand body language at all.
I hate the fact if I start to feel emotions for someone I actually move cities so I dont have to see them.
I hate going to where there are lots of people.
I hate how people tell me their problems because I never kniow what to say..
I hate that people have said I was an alien cause Im not like them..
The biggest issue I find it really hard to put my thoughts into words. Because people dont seem to understand what I say.

I hate this too. It's not that I don't reckognise them, because I always reckognise people. It's just that my mind is always constantly chattering away with hundreds of thoughts at once as I'm walking along (which is why I'm always looking like I'm lost), and I'm always walking quick too, so I fly past people and never give myself time to take in who is around me. My ears are always open, so as soon as they call my name (after I've flown by them without looking), I look over my shoulder but can't seem to figure out where the sound is coming from. It takes a few seconds for my brain to process where it is coming from.

Ohh, I hate when this happens! I feel like a dopey twat all the time. This is what I hate about AS. I may not be stupid or ret*d intellectually, but I can't always tell people this because I come across as stupid or ret*d when it comes to seeing people I know in the street.

So when people say to me, ''AS is not nothing to be ashamed of because you are not stupid or ret*d,'' and I always say, ''maybe so, but being socially awkward is still just as bad as being intellectually awkward''.

That's it exactly - I do recognise them but I'm also lost in my own world and it takes me a couple of moments to find my way back. It's a bugger, isn't it?

The energy required for social interaction. Its so inefficient it probably causes global warming

All of them.

Everything. the isoitation, the meltdowns, being so damn picky, being so lost in my mind, not being able to understand people or relate. There are days when I wish that Autism Speaks would just find a cure already just so that I would be first in line to get it.

LOL.

That explains why my wife is always complaining she's hot. I must be radiating heat.

I can't be doing with mopping up the puddles of ooze.

Stimming in public, sensory issues, and being pushed around.