Hi Ken (((((HUGG))))) (MY HUGS ARE BEAR TREE HUGS)
And--I don't know.
I used to really really really need to know about all of the inconsistancies and God.
Over time, after the hardest darkest years anyways--
The question didn't matter to me anymore. I stopped believing in The Fear of God. I won't know til it's over-so to be safe (and sane) I'll do the best I can, in case there is a book of names, and if it's just a great white empty-than I'll be a wiser safer soul. And if my best is not accepted then I accept to burn--how worse is it to see so many wrong things?
But--I stopped thinking on it when I discovered how very much I like ME.
I'm a bit eclectic though-I filter what I trust (in my heart) when it concerns books composed or edited at any point in time by people.
It makes no point/end to ask Why then did God...ect.
You see~~only he could answer.
Maybe he was busy elsewhere. (I know I know--the all powerful???)
or maybe
He just wanted those good folks back for awhile.
Or maybe for some strange reason him and satan have a deal that satan gets to cause so much bs.
The fact is you are an incredible unique beautiful being--even to question-to feel so much. I gather he likes you very much.
The other day I actually pondered whether or not God made autistics so he could keep them all to himself...in a place where others couldn't actually see them. shrug.
just don't do any thing rash.
when the wind blows;
god is kissing your face.
when the bird flys by;
god is saying hello, I am with you.
when the tree stands alone;
god is reminding that such strength exists for man.
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"I'm sorry Katya, my dear, but where we come from, your what's known as a pet; a not quite human novelty. It's why we brought you.... It's nothing to be ashamed of, my dear, but here you are and here you'll sit."