Which Autism Subtype Are You? Version 2

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I'm probably also alexithymic so that probably has something to do with it, but for the most part it hinders my ability to make connections. I also talk in a slightly stilted, antiquated way. That being said, I do lose control of my emotions. I think it might be a core autism thing, or something.

It makes me feel like I'm permanently in limbo, neither human nor machine, because I'm an outside observer tied to the inside, you know? Logic, emotions, wrong logic, extreme emotions, words.

My moods and emotions are why I never ever suspected I was autistic.

However...I can't make connections either! I always have the 'wrong' emotions. The 'wrong' expression on my face. I'm 'too blunt' 'too forceful' 'too weird/strange/odd/funny' Or just 'too much' for people. It seems we can't win, whatever type of autism we have!

I know EXACTLY what you mean. I'm permanently in limbo. On the edge, excluded, watching through the window. I feel like my whole life has been spent behind a pane of glass watching everyone else live enjoyable, full lives surrounded by friends and family. While I'm outside in the street like a homeless person, watching life go by. Knocking on the window 'let me in! I just want to be friends!' But they turn away in confusion and disgust.

It seems that we are kindred spirits, then.

Something I REALLY struggle with is keeping a smile off my face at the appropriate time. Usually my face is blank, but particularly in situations where I shouldn't smile, I have to physically pull one down with my fingers.

Not to mention my two biggest special interests are really niche!

Oh yes, I understand you! I always have the 'wrong' expression on my face.

When I'm being sneaky, I look very upset.
When I'm confused, I either look sneaky or angry.
When I'm not thinking of anything, I look cruel.
When I'm very upset, I look blank.

I can't get it right! We need emojis in real life!

So friends, I've been Googling the 4 Subtypes and found these articles:

https://www.bbrfoundation.org/content/f ... individual

https://www.insideprecisionmedicine.com ... of-autism/

Trigger warning: This one below talks about 'treatment' and 'cure'. However, it is much clearer on which type is which. And the Tailoring Treatment for Individuals section is very interesting.
https://www.sportskeeda.com/health-and- ... n-function

I'd be really interested in people's opinions of those links I posted above

1/3 Sensitive. It feels like my aspie side creates routines, rituals, and processes that compensate for my social failings. I have to figure out by myself how to live happily without people.
I see neurodiversity defined by natural interests. Either people or things.
Neurotypicals are more interested in other people. Autistics are more interested in things. Over their lives both types innocently choose opportunities based on their innate interest (people or things). The brain (mind) learns and grows every day and eventually becomes talented in one (opportunities taken) and clumsy in the other (opportunities missed).

When I was younger, I chose to miss opportunities to be social because I wasn't interested in them. Or I even felt threatened by them. Now I am suffering for it.

Being social requires skills that I don't have and I don't know how to get them at my age.

Same here my friend.

I am interested in people but in a kind of confused way. Like I want to study them to see what they're doing. I really want to do a sociology degree. Psychology doesn't interest me as much because I can't relate to NT psychology: the 'normal' things that people are supposed to naturally do, don't make sense to me.

Anyway! I missed social opportunities because I was too confused or too slow to take them up. By the time I'd worked out what was happening and what I wanted and what to say, the moment had passed forever. And I didn't know how to get it back.

Yes, I don't know how to get social skills now. I've been a stay at home mum for 18 years, mainly alone, so I've lost any knack I had with socialising.

When I was young, my parents were VERY sociable, as people were in the 1970s/80s, and I had LOTS of social practice. I've forgotten all that now, and the world has changed and people aren't as sociable or nice as they used to be.