I was trying to explain on another forum, the subject came up, and funnily enough, I was accused of incorrect self diagnosing by NT's.
They mentioned how a lot of people try to use it as an excuse for social ineptness, or that it means they're something like rainman.
It's hard to explain what an amazing experience it was finding you guys here, I know I'm technically self diagnosed, but only because I trust what my loved ones and family said when they learned what the criteria were, and thought about stuff I do.
Then when I came here and started reading your posts, I understand you guys. I feel you understand me, if I'm not AS, then I'm quite thoroughly confused, and utterly alone, cause I'm not NT either.
I tried to explain a bit of our sensation differences, figured you guys would get a kick out of it.
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y9B78mnaSNA[/youtube]
Put on headphones, and turn it up loud enough to block everything else out.
In my head, it feels like there are shiny little crystalline shapes dancing around in the first part of the song, right in the back of my skull, behind my jaw.
The synth notes that start up are little slivery bundles of spikes that stab down above my ears and dance around with the changes.
Then new shards swim past with the instrument tracks as the "muh muh muh mah" part enters.
When the bass starts, it's large alternating left and right splashes of big shards of crystal shattering. Left ones starting on the right side of the center of my head, and vice versa. The one with the cymbals accompanying it is especially intense. The big splashes are about as big around as a coffee cup, and the shapes coming from them reach the side of my head.
This all builds and recedes, with the little flourish bits dancing around, and the voice track sitting somewhere up above it all.
When the chorus comes in about at 1:00~, it fills my head with silvery light, and it's so intense I feel like crying.
Pot intensifies it even further, to the point where I can't do anything else but sit and enjoy it. Right now I can type while it's on, though it's difficult.
Does everyone experience this intense semi-synesthetic rush when they listen to music?
Almost all music does this to me to some extent, but certain songs are so intense I just sit and listen to them over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over... I've been going back and restarting the first part of the song to try to accurately describe what it feels like through just the first minute.
I've listened to it all the way through like 6 times now, plus 5 or 6 restarts.
If I told this to an Aspy, they would most likely use slight different metaphors for the specific mental experiences, but they would immediately understand what I meant. Reading their own versions of these types of sensations, and sharing my own with them surprised me.
They understood me completely, and I them.