Have you been BULLIED? Share your story.
Primarily happened in middle school and was a daily occurrence. Teachers did little to stop it, and worse, I was probably "marked" because of my dumb IEP status and the fact that I had this assistant going around and following me. I have never fully recovered from the trauma it brought. My post-traumatic stress disorder can vouch that.
People made faces, called me names, pushed me around, threatened me for my money, chased/ganged up on me, ignored me, excluded me. Just about every nasty trick in the book. I mean, I was just always the target for bullies and I never understood why. I was the new kid and everyone knew I had autism/Asperger syndrome because of my dumb IEP status. It was quite honestly living hell. I developed severe social anxiety, which is bad enough having autism.
Teachers never helped. Bullies weren't punished so bad (with the exception of one teacher who did help me). But it almost felt as if I were the problem, not them.
f**k the "education" system, man.
is your PTSD exclusively from being bullied?
for some it is...whereas other were traumatized at home as well as school.
have you rec'd therapy for this problem?
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Reading these also reminds me of protecting some kids from being bullied, I eventually took over the bully hierarchy unwillingly. I wound up keeping things in line though slight of hand, and other tricks. One half of the student body ignored me in the end, the other half were scared of me. I hated being in the situation, but I did the best I could before I escaped for good.
I was... until over 8 months I grew 9 inches and put on 85 pounds of muscle... it pretty much stopped when one of them hit me in the back of the head and I released the beast all over his face.
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I came really close "friends" with this one girl but other friends of mine would warn me about her. In one case, I was having a little "chat" with her on IM, I walked out to do my laundry and some girls come up to and say "they're making fun of you downstairs." It's covert harassment like this that is extremely painful for people who have trouble fitting in. You think you've got a friend and they stab you in the back....
Unfortunately, I picked up a lot of negative from her. She would alternate between playing the victim and the persecutor and sometimes I find myself repeating that exact behavior. It's sh***y what people do to you sometimes.
It's all rather confusing because I also tend to get paranoid... but at the same time sometimes people really ARE making fun of you and looking down on you.
I have an idea of what may have been driving what you describe.
I'm going to reference my "GAMES people play" thread.
If you communicate in a very honest and/or blunt manner, then I think many people will take it as manipulative and not as honest. I think they assume that you are gaming them in some way, become offended, and then respond in a way they think appropriate. They end up bullying or doing something harmful towards you.
I ended up dropping out of high school two weeks into my last year. My mind finally said "this again?!? Oh, Hell no!" Only then did the school educators and administrators care about what was common knowledge about "the weird gay kid"). I dropped out of a lot of things in my teens (school, Boy Scouts, church, friendships). Getting a job was actually good for me, and I enrolled into college ASAP. I learned that there were friendly people who I could want in my life, and would compliment my work and support me because of my sexuality and weirdness.
you raise a great point!
many individuals are bullied by the religious for non-conformity to the will of the clergy
the LDS are notorious in their enforcement of their members
i hope you finally found acceptance(outside of religion obviously)
I did. I asked to be excommunicated by the LDS Church when I was 19 years of age. Most members simply walk away from the church, but I wanted them to agree with me that my membership was as bad for them as it was for me. I was lucky enough to get a bishop (congregational minister) who was quite laissez-faire about my request and actually quite kind and funny, to conduct my "bishop's court" (the church's disciplinary council). The bishop's first counselor (second in seniority) chastised the bishop and I for making a couple of very tame jokes during the proceeding. His piety risked his own ecclesiastical career because even questioning the bishop in the performance of his duties is a violation of church-leadership rules.
Anyway, when the bishop visited my apartment to hand deliver the court's decision, he apologized for his counselor's outburst. What a cool guy!
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I'm not very good at writing speeches however, I'll do my best to illustrate my own experience with being bullied. The best way I could present what it's like for my own story of torment would go as follows. When I was a young child I remember how my exiled,non-existent father would be sitting at the dinner table and point to the plate and say,"You don't leave the table unless you eat everything on your plate.". This might sound like playful humor however this was absolutely not the case and many times I would feel so pressured to eat as quickly as possible that often I would find myself feeling unpleasant. As well, there was a time when I actually fell asleep at the table because of such anxiety.
These days, I actually, have to slow myself down whenever I eat be it breakfast,lunch,dinner for, it's like that image of my childhood sometimes plays through my mind which, is why I do my best to help remind myself such things are no more. Yes, this sounds very silly indeed but in my opinion it's not some figment of the mind.
Ah, from a verbal standoint I had been called several things in my life time be it ret*d,schizophrenic,homosexual, etc a great amount of such harsh & cruel words were thrown my way due to the fact, that due to my physical form not being super bulky muscle most people would think would think I'm not male though evidence suggests otherwise.. Believe me having long arm,long legs without a great amount of muscle mass often woudl make others gawk & stare..
In fact, I would sometimes choose to wear clothing that would hide my awkward form shall we say for, I'd not want others to make fun of me..
Not sure what else to say except, I try my best to remain human in a world which often can be inhuman..
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I was bullied by a couple of as*hole black guys my senior year. Nothing too bad, just rude remarks about how little I was and I had a big head. Oh yea one time during gym class when we were walking around the gym for warmup, he pulled some of the guys shorts down including mine. It wasn't too bad since it was an all guys class and it's not like he did that in the school cafeteria or anything. Now that would be bad. He was just an all around rude guy. He was a Wiz Khalifa poser.
Since I was pretty short, I did get picked on. Mostly by as*hole sophmore who thought they were better than everyone else. One time I told a bunch of sophomores I was senior and they broke out into laughter and they were like but you're so short. And two of my worst enemies decided to throw something at my head in the middle of lunch I just said good throw to pretend like it didn't bother me.
I can't recall ever being bullied in my junior year (except for my gym clothes being stolen the 1st day and I learned pretty quick) At that time I was at a different school than my senior year which was kind of funny because this school was supposed to be the ghetto school. You'd think that people were more mean and rude at the ghetto school but they were actually nicer.
I would say verbal was the most common form of bullying. I was called ret*d a lot, and even sexy ret*d although the sexy was more so mocking my appearance than actually saying I was attractive. I was also called lesbian, although I identified as straight at the time. I was made fun of for being single, I was told that I would be forever alone and marry a hobo....that messed me up bad. I was severely harassed when I had a boyfriend in eighth grade and it was everyday. The list goes on....I've been called fat, ugly, weird, freak...heck when ever I'd accidentally bump into someone in the crowded hallways they'd say they want to burn their clothes. I was once cornered in gym by a bunch of kids and they threw dodge balls at me, and it hurt emotionally and physically. Even during graduation one of them touched my butt, and that happened a few times before and all of the times it was uncomfortable. My torture was their amusement.
Somebody had the nerve to put a penis shaped orange peel on my back pack in the high school gym locker room. I still remember that day to this day. By simply hearing someone was having an orange, I had an idea who it was as soon as I saw an orange peel shaped like a penis (what a "coincidence"). I told my sister and she told him off. It seems trendy to be homophobic these days, until they get arrested for inadequate treatment.
This was for a variety of reasons:
1) Social issues (though I didn't know I had AS until 25)
2)My mother having bipolar and being "crazy"
3)Divorced parents: I was born in 1985 and was the only person with divorced parents through all of elementary school.
4) Poverty: I was one of if not the poorest person through high school. I was on government programs as well.
5)My ancestry: I am over 1/8th (if not more) Native American) causing me to have darker skin tone (well I am fading each year towards pasty white) and "Asian" eyes. I was constantly made fun of and occasionally excluded from activities by the other kids due to being Asian or Middle Eastern! BUT I NEARLY ALL WHITE (6/8th or 13/16th White if not less White).
6)Physical Disabilities: I still get negative reactions to it from others from time to time, though some days It's quite noticeable when flaring up. Though In K-12 it was more noticeable and yeah I was bullied for it.
7)Others or I didn't understand it.
I was physically bulled, verbally and emotionally bullied to the point I didn't want to go back to school when i was kid.
I'm sorry to hear how badly you were treated.
You raise an important factor,that in some cases of bullying race or ethnicity is the prime excuse for the attacks.
There are many children who are horribly treated just because of the color of their skin or some other characteristic.
The effects of this treatment are often life-long.
In school i was made fun of mostly for my weight and my moder skill problems i was called fat ass godzilla the beast as well as other things i was also made fun of for being on a special education buss and maybe being in special ed then in high school i was bulled a bit call ret*d and "real special ed kid" and it hurts I was also almost kissed by a boy as i guess a dare and made fun of in the mental hospital by both the nurses and the kids.
I was bullied physically mentally emotionally and sexually.
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