IQ and aspies

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I construct my own internally all the time, but then fitting them so that I explain them to the outside takes time. Often it feels impossible as I cannot hold the idea in my mind when it is not firmly attached to something else far more concrete. Sometimes that more concrete thing is another self-created concept, sometimes I use English language to attach it to those things. I find that process quite enjoyable and given the chance, spend hours upon hours doing that. Unless I keep catching snippets of ideas that I then lose, in which case it can become frustrating.

Once this process is done I can then share the idea with other people, at least in text. I rarely ever communicate these things IRL. This is also how I share and understand my own internal life. Describing my own emotional experiences and sometimes thoughts, in the moment, just doesn't happen. Until I wanted an actual emotional connection with someone else, I have not bothered to try sharing my immediate experiences with anyone. Trying to do that is extremely hard; not only must I understand my emotions in that moment I must also then be able to experience them while speaking and then also get past a...block. (not going to describe the block, too much involved in that). That level of personal communication with pretty much anyone and everyone isn't necessary to function in this world.

I think that my way of general functioning is only possible because I make tons of connections and enjoy spending time developing them.

Maybe I am all mask.

I run into the same problem.
My mind heavily filters between concrete and abstract. I use abstractions as tools/models only, which often makes it difficult to communicate useful information to people around me who insist on living in a reality of pure abstraction.
It bugs me, and to me they often seem delusional, as I also seem to them.
Efficient communication is often difficult.

When I read this this does not sound particularly like how I work. I have no idea what other people do or don't do within themselves, but if anything I think the world around me is concrete and I'm the abstract person. I feel like this will disappoint you somehow.

190 in a subtest of IQ test... Wow! Congratulations! Makes an impression.