For those that believe ASD is Only hard wired/genetic

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Like I said, it says you don’t believe me. And like I told you, just because you don’t believe me that doesn’t make me a liar. It still is what it is. I successfully treat my symptoms with medicine & I’m living a second life for it.

I know of several better sounding treatments which have many more than just one person's testimonial regarding effectiveness. .

*shrug* As we finally established in another read, you choose not to believe me because what I do involves gross science. It doesn't change any of the material facts nor truth of the matter. It is what it is. I never WANTED what I learned to lead to this, but it did. I'd much prefer there were a pressure point on the back of my hand that I could squeeze and get the same results. But there isn't & this is where everything led to over 5 years ago and I'll continue doing my thing, because it works, and I'll carry on with my life of work/play/socializing & pursuing my goals. I'll remain an open book about it all regardless of whether you believe me or not. Like I pointed out earlier in this thread, scientific research is catching up to what I shared here on these forums 5 years ago, looking at the intestines as a root cause of ASD, and probiotics as a therapy method. Eventually everything will be explained and it'll no longer be any mystery how what I do works. In the meantime, I'll continue to enjoy the life changing benefits of it.

Spark is an Artificial Intelligence construct housed inside a floating robot eye thingy. He is extremely arrogant and full of himself, always floating around patting himself on the back for his "good ideas". He doesn't seem to get it that he is loathed by most. One of my favorite Halo moments is was finally getting to fight and kill him--in most of Halo he is an immortal non player character.

I'm very much a real human being, not AI. If I were AI I wouldn't make as many mistakes as I do.

I don't consider myself arrogant. Seriously. I get called that here. But there's a difference in being competent and confident at abc & xyz and knowing so and making intentionally arrogant statements like "I am better than you," without any sort of qualifier like "I am better at you than you at kiteboarding because I have experience at it and you have yet to even try it." I'm not even what would be considered a very good kiteboarder, but I am confident in my competence to kiteboard better than you can. That's just an example off the top of my head. There's a HUGE difference between someone simply being better at something than someone else and knowing so and just declaring themselves as superior for no other purpose than to inflate their own ego. There are MANY MANY people who are more competent at things I'm good at, and they can confidently state such as fact because it's true.

On a similar train of thought, I think one thing that people here just don't get AT ALL is that people like myself (and there are MANY people like me, I'm not special) are capable of learning and doing things that take others more time to do, if they can ever do them. It's just my baseline level of normal. Even back when I was in my late teens in business school (I graduated from business school when I was 19 years old. I was also the Chair of Business and Health Sciences on the Student Association.) one instance comes to mind when the head instructor gave an example of something that had to do with process engineering & time math and explained the problem. I responded and said "2 minutes and.. 32 seconds." He says "You've seen this before?" Me: "No, you gave the example and I did the math and that's the answer.. unless I made a mistake, let me double check. *in head math*, No, that's correct, 2 minutes and 32 seconds." Him: "Ok, *smiles*, how'd you do it?" Me: "*explains mathematical process of aligning sequential tasks in the critical path of a process on a mac chart and then adding up time in base 60*" Him: "Well, yeah.. that's how you do it. We were going to split off into teams and spend the next 10-15minutes figuring this out together." Me: "Oh, sorry." *whole class staring at me* (where the average age was 28 and the oldest classmate I had was a 54yo Mechanical Engineer from China.) I can't just turn my brain off and think slower nor be any less correct or accurate if I tried. It's simply what comes naturally to me. Maybe these sorts of things are so unfathomable by some here, but equally is not being able to do those things for me. It simply is what it is. I can do the math, figure things out, do the physical work etc - I'm not arrogant about it. It just is what it is just the same as someone else who has a talent for singing or playing basketball. They're not arrogant for being competent at the things they were born able to develop skills in. They ought to be confident if they're any good at them, though.

I feel I get a lot of hate from people on these forums who misunderstand me & misinterpret me as being arrogant when I'm simply being my authentic self. It's not my fault that I was born with a reasonably high IQ and functioning level. But from the posts I get here, I feel as if people read what I write and make the assumption that because I'm reasonably intelligent (smart enough that University sciences and Medical School are realistic goals) that somehow I'm not supposed to be socially impaired by my Autism and that I'm held to a higher standard than those with lesser intelligence or functioning levels, and IMO, that's exactly the opposite of the "Autism acceptance movement," sort of mentality that many here preach.

Like I said earlier in this thread, though, it's a good thing I don't come here for a pat on the back or encouragement and that my own personal drive is sufficient to keep me moving forward, because with the exception of very few posters here, I mostly catch flak from people who like to hate on me for having fun and enjoying my life. I'm not going to pretend to be miserable nor aim to have a sh***y life just so I can have things to complain about here in order to "fit in," or "belong." Sure, I still have problems in my life & some of them aren't fun at all, but I don't whine about most of them here because that doesn't serve me in improving any of them and I'd rather focus on good than bad.

So, you fantasize about killing me, eh? (That's an assumption, you never said that.) Hmm, why? Because I'm able to work & play and live life and have fun and go to the beach and go kiteboarding and make friends and get laid? It's no wonder so many people who are WILDLY more successful than myself, especially when it comes to money, have a policy of being tight lipped about their happiness & success, because it seems most others have no interest in learning anything positive from them.. instead, people get envious and angry. I've had this conversation with some friends that are far more well off than I am, actually, and some of them back when I was more than six figures in debt and then bankrupt. They told me they don't like to talk about business and money with people for those very reasons.. others get jealous and frustrated. I was very transparent that I appreciate the conversation as I have a lot to learn from them, and in turn, if I have anything of value to offer from my perspective & educational background, I'll offer it freely. My friend(s) relaxed and we spoke of business and money, and they were like "Whoa, you're right.. you're not jealous and you are interested in learning and conversing. This is actually pretty awesome and refreshing!" We learned things from each other. I helped advise them on their businesses & decisions, which they appreciated. I continue to advise my high school best friend on his high level business decisions to this day - he went to programming school, not business, and I've helped him make some very big $ saving/making decisions/prevented mistakes. I talk stocks with guys who have more money than I will ever see. I have an inventor friend who's had this large scale ocean power generation concept (that he's won awards at major enviro science affairs at with) who wants me to make a powerpoint presentation for him so that he can pitch his plan to a government or power company in India. I've advised philanthropists on some of their business decisions.. hell, gangsters, too. lol *shrug* It is what it is. I am knowledgable, helpful, non-judgemental and don't get envious of others' success. I prefer to be involved in the conversation so that I can be as helpful as I can while learning as much as I can from people who are far more successful than I am. I think this is a far better approach than calling competent people arrogant and wanting to kill them because they've achieved some things you haven't yet. Only time will tell which method begets one more success. So far, I'd guess that by the metrics of learning new things, accumulating financial wealth, and making more friends, that my approach is in fact the winner. But hey, you do you. :beer:

Immortality.. now there's an appropriate comparison. I keep taking crap from people like you here and just keep on carrying on w/o stopping. I like it.

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I don't want to kill you. Just saying that killing Spark in the game was deeply satisfying.

Also, I meant the character was immortal in the game sense--impossible to kill or damage until the right moment because he was needed for plot reasons. Like in squad based shooters where your AI teammates never die until the game reaches a certain plot point.

[intentionally arrogant for comedic effect]Hmm, I don't play video games.. are there any where the antagonist is a frustrated loser who refuses to learn or do anything positive to better himself? It might be deeply satisfying to kill those sorts of virtual characters to help clear the way for progress & success![/iafce]

I get satisfaction out of more concrete real physical accomplishments like building something or achieving a personal best or really pushing my limits on a long run or kiteboarding session. I can't imagine the possibility of feeling anywhere near as good about a virtual accomplishment inside of a video game as I do about a REAL one in the real world, especially physical ones, because they get neurotransmitters and hormones and things flowing to allow for a euphoric sensation that's truly among the best human experiences.

*shrug* video games just aren't my thing. Haven't really played them since I was a young teenager. IMO, the world has become far too virtual and people don't keep their bodies in physical motion enough to be strong and healthy with work & play. There are far more humans than ever, but there's far less competition in so many aspects of life because there are very few people willing to physically do what it takes to get hard work done, to build their bodies with the kind of functional strength it takes to be competitive in sport and other things etc. Work, life, play, and even financial success are not nearly as unachievable as most people believe they are. IMO, most people give up before they even start trying, and they reaffirm that vote every time they spend another day glued to video games or YouTube or whatever instead of getting outside and moving. I'm sure there are many fit healthy people who also play video games as a leisure activity, but I'm talking about people who's primary use of time is sitting & playing games vs. doing things. But again, whatever, not my circus, not my monkeys. Others are free to do whatever they want & get the results they do from their decisions and actions.

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Disagree with GF all you like, but knock it off with the personal attacks.

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I am successful in my job (for the USGS) and have a happy life with money in the bank and etc. And I'm not ashamed of what I am and don't see any need to change it. Fustrated looser who refuses to better himself? Hardly. And to the mods, how is that not a personal attack?

I'm human. I'm not invincible. I'll die whenever my time is. Hopefully it's in a very long time from now and due to natural causes vs an accident of some sort. Like that AI thingy, I'm still around because I'm needed for plot reasons. I have a purpose and now I know what it is.

You're new-ish here, so you've likely never read this quote of mine from ~6 years ago. I was very ill with all kinds of symptoms and my brain functions were going haywire. At one point I thought it may have been a tooth infection from some recent dental work that was poisoning my lungs/body and causing massive problems, so I went back to the dentist and they agreed that it was a possibility and so took x-rays to find out. No tooth infection. I was very perplexed and the dentist said I seemed very disappointed not to have a tooth infection. I was, as I was hoping I had figured it out and that there was a known solution & process to follow to fix my health. After that, even though I'm careful af, I was terrified that it could be HIV causing so many different awful symptoms, so I went to a clinic and had blood drawn for testing. Sometime over the next week, I went for a long run one Summer night and looked up to the stars and said something like "Grant me a clean bill of health, let me figure this out, give me a second chance.. and I won't f*****g waste it." So, you see, I have a deal with the Universe. I got what I wanted, and now I'm not to waste my second chance. Everything happens for a reason and I feel the reason I've made it through all of this, the purpose that I have, is to pursue a career in Medicine and do as much good as I possibly can in assisting others with transforming & improving their health as it's the single most valuable human resource any of us have. And so, I will, and then whenever the plot line runs it's course I'll die and some sad people who will miss me will scatter my ashes at my two favourite beaches. Until then, though, nothing can stop me.

Because he clearly indicated he was being sarcastic.

FYI This forum is literally the only place in my entire life that I get hate from anyone. I chalk it up to it being full of a bunch of depressed & angry people who are frustrated with their lives.

My family are pretty chill most of the time. My friends like me just fine. My God kids & nephews love me - often coming running to me for a hug because I'm their favourite Uncle and the one adult in their lives that gives them undivided attention, plays with them teaches them things. I go to the beach and I'm greeted by literally dozens of people with hellos, hi's, high-fives, smiles, fist bumps, hand shakes, nods. I help build things there. I carry things down/up the 487 stairs for others. I provide food/water/medicine to those in need. I have meaningful conversations with many from teenaged first year University students to retired Professors and everyone in between. I drive at least one person home on my way out every day, sometimes more than one. It's all smiles and high fives and stories at the kite beach, too. I volunteer to do work for my friend's art society when they're setting up for a show. I'm very giving & as charitable as I can afford to be. I spend next to zero dollars on myself all year so that I can spend around $3000 on gifts for family & friends, mostly at Christmas, but throughout the year for various occasions. My phone is on 24/7 for when those I love need help - and that has included picking people up from jail in the middle of the night. I do handyman work for seniors at a cut rate price. I help people move. I lift heavy things up and dig holes down. I interpret for my deaf friends as needed.

The way I'm painted here is as if I'm some terrible as*hole who's a jerk to everyone and nothing could be further from the truth. I am very well liked and my friendship is appreciated by many.

I was simply describing a video game character opposite to the one you described liking killing, it wasn't a personal attack on you.

As for changes, we've discussed this before, too. I'm pro treatment for ASD and willing to do whatever it takes to minimize it's impact on my life, you're anti-treatment and don't want any such thing for yourself. That's fine. No one is obligated to treat their symptoms. The problem I have with some of your posts about it is that you've made it clear that you don't think treatments should exist or be developed, and it's my opinion that you don't get to decide for others if they'd prefer to opt to treat their symptoms.

As you are excellent at problem solving, etc., I'm surprised you have not solved the problem of being (apparently?) so disliked here.

And if you really think its because the people who dislike you do so because they are "depressed and angry and frustrated with their lives" then its evident you have serious TOM issues and havnt really addressed anything except perhaps confidence and anxiety issues.

I am anti treatment because I don't see our condition as a disease. I believe that NTs by themselves would have invented no science and almost no technology, and that the 'society' they have created is predatory and horrible. Oh, and rest assured that the "treatment" dreamt of by our haters is the same "cure" they have for Downs Syndrome, namely the in utero murder of those who have it. They don't do this only because there currently exists no genetic test for autism, but rest assured if we get one there will be an Asipe/Auttie holocaust to rival the present murder of 90% of people with Downs.