Surprisingly I was already on the right topic as I opened. I seemed go go from ASD 1, to what would be ASD 1.5. My first time back to a regular church in years. My eardrums were on constant vibration, the blinking lights were definitely blinding, my anxiety was so high I thought I was gonna have my 3rd seizure in my life, I was about ready to cry and have a meltdown when I got back due to all the built up stimulation from church even though I only shedded a few light tears. But I looked it all over, I get super defensive when talking about my interests, I follow a lot of routines like my meditation and prayer methods, I’ll sit alone and not talk to anyone in public and my religious Ocd has been crippling my life to the point where that’s all I think about. I can still speak like a nt would and hide my symptoms even though I don’t hide it when I’m all alone (repeating phrases, stimming, looking up my interest in angels often, etc) so I see myself as level 1.5 if not a level 2 ASD now
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It’s foolish to worship angels and also foolish to ignore them.