who here battles low self-esteem?

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My worthless corpse does not "battle" low self esteem

My worthless corpse (enjoys) low self esteem


Or maybe everyone else has too much self esteem

Everything else is a ripoff. My worthless corpse has the correct price tag

That price tag is zero bucks and zero pennies

I hate everyone else even more than I hate myself


Shift the coordinate axis

"Thin line between love and hate"

^^^you've got a point about many people of dubious societal value having supreme self-esteem. that is a continuing mystery, what such people seldom get deflated.

My self-esteem is alright. It's my stress tolerance limit that is fcked.
Battles...such a war like word. Why not elevate, or raise, or improve.
Instead. Battles...

Self-esteem with a disability

when i'm around normal people my self-esteem takes a big hit, hence i can't stay around them long at all.

I've had major struggles with this throughout my life, probably because most of my life I didn't know about autism but knew I had problems and issues (social, sensory, not fitting in, much more sensitive in general than others, etc.) that I didn't see others dealing with and could not figure it out. Also, the ridicule and put-downs and being tormented by others (mainly family) for sensory issues that I had that I didn't understand what was wrong with me either. It got pretty bad at a point. Luckily my husband has been a great help and he doesn't make me feel bad for these things. Now I know about autism and it helps my esteem some (not my fault, not a defective horrid person). I still struggle though when I cannot get things that I see others around me get perfectly well like it is no problem. So, yeah now it is more when I see the differences between me and other NT people.

my self esteem got a giant providential boost yesterday when, at dan dial's tesla lab in Shelton WA. i encountered some lovely people, nice friendly evolved couple, who sensed my low self-esteem and got to work on me and made me feel loved, they told me i was very lovable!! NOBODY has EVER said THAT to ME before! wow..... i swooned, i fell in love with them, the man was a charismatic preacher and he laid hands on me and prayed for me fervently... OMG swooning... i must dwell on those good feelings to tide me over... i hope something like this happens for others here on WP.

Yeah.
I'm late to this thread as been away for work, up in Far North Queensland where the internet/phone service has yet to reach and cattle still walk on the main highway...
Anyway, I had a traffic control crew with me and this time, in an attempt to avoid the inevitable miscommunications, I told them about my autism up front. Basically told them to communicate with me directly because I'm not going to pick up on hints and the like.
One of the guys, he really got it. He'd worked for Centrelink before, that's the government agency that deals with benefits / social security, so maybe he'd experience with autistics, or maybe he was particularly empathetic. I felt like he was watching out for me the whole time, and when we finished the fieldwork stint, he gave me a big hug.
I went away and bawled my eyes out, because I feel so broken all the time, and am so busy covering that up and putting on a show of competence so that I can do my work, hardly anybody ever sees through that and understands how much I struggle to connect with people, let alone helps me out.
Ultimately, don't we all just want to feel loved and accepted? It's very hard to have good self-esteem without regular reminders from others that we belong.

Ironically, my autism probably boosts but then reduces my self-esteem a little due having that good memory for facts/things I've read, so I have that fleeting feeling of being able to help by sharing it to others (I like helping). I then kinda feel like I'm standing out too much when I do it and appearing egotistical/arrogant, so then I dislike myself for talking in the first place, lol.

It's one of the reasons why I hide.