Am I aspergic? 20 something male

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Hi there, my name is James. This is my first time writing an internet blog so I don't really know if it will be much good or not.

I have been diagnosed since I was 7 years old, so I guess I am lucky in alot of ways. I have always despised being labled as aspergeric, and have tried many times to go off my medication and even disputing the validity of the diagnosis. I have been in denial about my condition for a long time, and I still don't know if I agree with it.

I have few friends, I hate connecting with any group of people. I have always thought of myself as too advanced to hang around other aspies but not so advanced as to hang around NT's. Last night I met an old highschool friend, followed him to an aquitence's place where we played a bit of poker. I got drunk, made a fool of myself, got angry and drove home with a BAC of 0.09.

I am a chornic attention seeker. I both want to fit in with people, but find myself making a fool of myself when the pressure gets to me. the trouble is I am not a victim. I know the rules, but very often I choose to ignore them, if that means I am insane then I want to be insane.

I have very limited interest in people, and regularly snap at my friends. I have lost alot of friends and potential lovers because I have acted too much like a child and because people don't fit my expections, or have a life outside of me. i am very possessive which has made me think i sometimes treat people like objects. this has caused me to doubt my feelings about people. I worry that if i don't care for people that I will be a monster.

i hate and love people, as I hate and love myself. i see people as many shades of gray. I want to be normal but i despise it as well. I am alone, i don't know if I have aspergers.

i hate the way we are labled aspergeric. i hate westurn psychairtry with it's drugs and it's oppression and manipulation. I hate being labled, i hate the idea that some has taken my life out of my hands. I don't know how much of my anger is justified and how much is self pity, i don't know if i have a right to angry.

Guys do these sound like the words of an Aspie, I don't f*****g know!! !

Hello James! Welcome to WP

I am curious, though, you mentioned being on meds for being Aspergic. What meds are used to treat AS?

Merle

I was going to ask what meds you are taking too. I take meds but not for AS, though my mum says they have helped with a few of my symptoms.
You could have Asperger's. I get sick of people too. I can only be around people for a certain time until I get annoyed with them.

Hi there and welcome to WP.

Firstly, do yourself a small favor and stop calling yourself aspergeric because it sounds a little odd and makes you stand out (this is not good). Most of us round here call each other aspies and nobody minds.

From the way you describe your lifestyle it's likely that you're an aspie but for your own piece of mind try some of the online tests and see how you score. I did one of them and it scored me as 168/200 but others will almost certainly get a different score.

Can anyone help here because I can't find the URL for the test?

One thing I found that really helped were chats with a psychiatrist and (eventually) group therapy meetings. Other members of WP have a low opinion of the psychiatric profession but they worked for me, the secret is to work WITH them and not fight it all the way just because you might disagree with something they say.

Finally, keep taking the meds. They were given to you for a reason.

Vanilla_Slice

Welcome james to WP and as vanilla slice pointed out aspergic is so ghetto as they say lol, the word is arciat and there is little need for it

Aspie encompasses all traits of autism as you will find on the forums many of us have multiple issues e.g. dyslexia, dysphraxia especially so the word aspergic is an oxymoronbecause it neglects the other traits of aspies

welcome and I recomment the, search in google, How Aspie are you test it is very procise for an online test and covers the DSM,

I am somewhat intrigued what meds you are n, it sunds to me like you were diagnosed with ADHD as I have met and red of aspies with adhd al who chronic attention seeking and meds are perscribed to reduce that effect

sorru guys, i was diagnosed with aspergers when i was 7. i have been on prosac since i was 10. thanks for the advice guys, i think i am going to like it here on wrong planet

Found it:

http://www.rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php

You can take the test without registering but these folk seem to be OK.

Vanilla_Slice