I kinda understand what you're going through (no one can fully understand what another person is feeling) because I myself have only just come out of a psychiatric ward, 2 weeks after trying to down over 100 pills. After being in there and seeing these people who are suffering so badly with illnesses like bipolar disorder and Schizophrenia, I realised how lucky I really am. At least I can have a hope of living some kind of normal life, many of these people have spent their lives in and out of these institutions. I know life can suck sometimes (and that the US system of 'pay to get medical help also sucks) but there's always a way through. I found that out the tough way. I'm glad you're out now and I hope you're feeling better.
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I have HFA, ADHD, OCD & Tourette syndrome. I love animals, especially my bunnies and hamster. I skate in a roller derby team (but I'll try not to bite
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