Hi. I have finally moved out of my mother's home. And I now live in an apartment complex.
So many things have happened since my last posts. I have been experiencing a wide variety of different symptoms that I don't know what to think. I've been finding it very diffucult to stay in a public place for a long amount of time. The only places that I can truly handle are smaller places. It's really hard on my family and staff when they take me out. How do I explain something like this to them? Of all people, my mother is a registered nurse, and there are many times she expects me to be "normal".
I just feel as though I can't handle being out in public anymore. Because whenever I do go out, I feel as something has to go wrong. I apologize for being so whiny. My therapist has given me the label of being "paranoid", when I really don't think I am. Isn't true that autistics can hear things that other people can't? There are so many sounds that my ears can concentrate on, and usually, it's the wrong things. I try to focus on what I'm doing, but the sounds that are surrounding me, are actually distracting me. I use my iPod for comfort, but then I grow tired of it, the same with the tv. I also try my Mac laptop.
Don't worry, I shall post more happy posts when things in my apartment tend to settle down.