I'm not the most verbal as some of you know, my speech is a lot of random words, made up jargon, and echolalia and maybe mini sentences. When i'm not stressed, I'm usually very calm, more giggling, more in my own world, and my speech can be from nothing to just random words. When i'm stressed though, I'm usually very hyper, my behavior is ten times more unpredictable, have no emotion except anger, can be very violent and wait this is the weird part, i'm more verbal, I'll actually say complete sentences and usually be yelling them out ! !! I cant figure it out, why that happens only when im anger or stressed im more verbal. Yesterday was a good example of it, my whole routine got thrown off due to weather i thought i could handle it, no i def couldnt, i instead punched my bf straight in the eye, broke glass everywhere, attacked him and anything that came near me, i just screamed, i went from extreme hyperness like climbing on the tables and counters and couches boucning around screeching to yelling destroying everything in my path , not only because of the routine but because it was thunderstorming so bad our window started leaking, the power went out, the dog was acting weird and the cat was seconds away from attacking ppl or dogs as well haha so a lot of tension. When im the most verbal my family stays wary of me because that usually means not a good thing, that im angry or upset about something, weird huh? I know most autistics when get stressed lose their voice, i gain a voice haha . Anybody else feel like sometimes their the opposite of most autistics
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