Spazzergasm wrote:
i think people still thought i was a bit wierd, but they seem a lot kinder if you have a big smile on your face and everything makes you laugh.
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Yes, the power of just smiling can be a marvellous thing, especially when you mean it, which you clearly did.
Sadly it's a long time since I've enjoyed a "breakout phase" like that. Somehow the cares and responsibilities of life seem to have gradually made it more difficult for me to get into carefree levity.
Also my sense of humour has always been disturbingly dark to many people. But I think the happy guy is still there, waiting in the wings for better days.
Way back in the past, I had a spell of social competence that lasted for over a year, and it was so complete that it was the one thing that most made me doubt that I had AS when that was first suggested about a year ago. It was a mix of people who happened to suit me very well, they were very friendly and seemed to respect people simply because they were people......so I kind of took the plunge and really opened up to them, in a way I never did before or since. I must have made loads of minor social mistakes, but nobody seemed to mind.
I never regretted extending that trust to them. I might have been seeing them as more perfect than they actually were, but I can't recall any time when that assumption let me down. I suppose my genuine liking for them showed.......I've often found that when I make it plain that I like somebody, they'll usually return the favour. Only problem is that my need for lots of time to myself tends to come over as being sick of their company, though for some strange reason it was never a problem back then.