Whenever I learn something, I don't feel like i've learned it until I can recite it word for word which basically means memorize it. To be able to do this I usually repeat it to myself over and over again. But it's not mindless repetition, I'm making a map of the page in my mind and basically walking down the map. Whenever I think about doing this I feel really drained and almost scared because it takes a lot of mental effort. Does anyone else feel this way? Some of the things that I study really interest me, but when it comes to making that list I'm too scared? about all the mental effort it's going to take.
Anyone in a similar boat?
This need to memorize pages in a list form is probably mostly OCD, but I don't really know any NT's that memorize the same way, or as well as I do. Most use random flash cards, I make a list. If anything in that list is out of place I get all f****d up lol.
Also, a lot of people have been saying hi to me recently and I haven't even bothered to respond. Yesterday I was in a computer store and one of the guys working there came up to me and asked: "How can I help you?"
I kind of turned my head and walked away. Has anyone just given up on being friendly? I don't really care what people think of me any more. If i'm not interested i'm not going to be nice about it.
03 Dec 2009, 1:37 pm
