Topic: Anger Management
The Question wrote:
The questions are:
1)...What are some of your anger issues?
2)...What kind of anger management resolutions
have you used?
3)...What were the results?
This is a email from the supposed Advocate for me about my anger issues.......
Anger Management Observed wrote:
Subject: RE: Setting appointments and suggestions!
Date: Mon, 20 Feb 2006 20:13:23 -0600
Stanley,
I understand you have a meeting on Thursday at 11:00 with Susan Young. I will be at this meeting for the begining period of time.
I discussed how our last friday meeting went with Susan and we both feel you have issues to address before we can begin a placement plan.
To answer your question, I would be responsible for interviewing and social cues with employment.
Stanley we were suppose to agree to a plan and work on the resume last Friday. Although this never happened, we need to address your feelings of anger and hostility toward others who are working with you.
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I can't even start looking for work for you until we get this covered.
After our evaluation meeting I was under the assumption that we had covered this old ground and you wanted to move foward with employment. After last friday I would recommend counseling with Barbara Luskin to address your anger with employment.
Unless you can let go of that, it is not possible to move foward.
I will take your resume suggestions and work with them, and see you on Thursday for further discussion prior to meeting again. I felt our meeting Friday was a step in the opposite direction of employment. We need to discuss these issues on Thursday with Susan Young.
For the record:
Susan Young is the Vocational Rehabilitation social Worker
Margie Webb is a representative for KCQ-a job placement agency
that supposedly does work for Susan regarding her clients.
And ..... I whole heartedly agree that before I leave here I get
anger managment so wherever I go next wont' have the same
baggage.
I am glad to have the diagnoses out of my conscious, the V.A.P and
other evaluations cleared in my conscious, thus the last thing that
can be of good benefit here is anger management. I don't want, nor
desire the emotionatl hurt and investment down here in Dakota
county called a Part Time job. I want to leave best prepared
mentally for my more appropriat e location settling in. I am a big
city person, not a small-ville person.
Here-Here to Anger Management.
Some facts about me wrote:
1)...I have lived under the housing that Karl provided. Karl is
my grandmothers 2nd husband. I and Karl never got along
on alot of levels.
Karl's food, Karl's house, ect....
By the age of 15 I was just beginning to learn my strengths
and they emerged as piano playing by ear. When I was
in HIS house he would often say "keep playing that piano,
there's the door boy!". From since on I have been homeless
and walked the darkness path of lack of expression is ok
and creativity is homelessness.
Later in life, or say age 30+ We know get along and
he and I regret those lost years. So there is hope in all
things
This caused much anxiety in how I express myself.
It didn't matter where I lived basically, but instead
I try to get you to like me("Be my friend" syndrome),
or in lamens terms, making the wrong kind of friends
just for the attention be it bad or good.
The not being accepted by others has harboured much
distrust toward others. Thus walking the dark path.
some other facts about me wrote:
2)...during the period of 1981-1991, I was mostly rejected
even by punk rockers, highschool students, new age people,
and society in general.
My premiscual sexual activity of the 80's and gay scene
was based on 2 facts.....Physical touch need that females
wouldn't provide, and if I died(aids thing) who cares. I am
surprised I saw 30, let alone 40.
During this time I was getting tired of trying to get people
to like me, but when it came to paries, and other things
I was left in the dark.
This was behaviour from both sexual persons seeking a
boy-toy, or roleplayers(D&D, White wolf), and Sci-fi'rs,
and the rejected members of our society that even rejected
me.
No wonder why at 25 I was a f****d up wreck, though never
did drugs and alcohol. I learned from watching the others
diminish from that. I wanted to die before 30 since all
I knew was no future, and still none at 40.
Hostility and distrust of others is the by-product of this
pre-30 age of mine. I hated people, and still do. I would
later by age 40 range see people laugh, cry, be sad, be glad,
and get jeoulous and want to tell them "go f**k off!"
But the honesty in me is stronger. I held in all this s**t
for many years. No wonder Margie doesn't want to
work with me.
Hmmmmmm?
Back to the present situation wrote:
What Margie suggested was a part-time job in Dakota
county. Not realizing that since the last 3 weeks I sleep
emotionally rather see the reality of being stuck here.
1)...Rejected feeling aroused
2)...Not one to fit into a small community feeling aroused
(and fact! They hire there own like the hanging together
of f*****g roleplayers, Sci-Fi rejectors, and and such.)
3)...And knowing that after my 2005 taxes are filed
I will ask for the one way back to San Francisco since
I don't feel up to another 6 months of being in Rosemount
and f*****g Apple Valley rejections.
I am not one to be trapped and I am at the point that if I am
to be stuck here for another 6 months, just for a pt job, off
I leave regardless of Susan, Margie.
What Margie suggested wrote:
Upon suggesting enduring another battery of negatives that
make me sleep more than stay awake, I get a part time
job down here.
I DO NOT SEE A EMOTIONAL INVESTMENT IN A PLACE CALLED
f*****g HELL. I am writing this with only 2 other options
for the day.
a)...Go home and sleep most of the day since I am feeling
damn uncomfortable at Dunn Bros.
b)...Walk 1.5 hours to another negative hole for me to
go.
Well, until Thursday 11am, when I meet susan, and try
not to explode on her. I have unintentionally done so
on Margie upon the suggestion that I stay longer in f*****g
apple Valley and Rosemount.
Disclaimer wrote:
BeeBee has done what she could to make this a comfortable
place to live. I say thanks to her for allowing the housing,
and food, and the small to large trivial stuff.
BeeBee is a wonderful person! Thanks.
22 Feb 2006, 4:21 pm
