Drawyer wrote:
I prefer being alone..I feel complete peace when I'm alone and I think I am happiest when I am alone.
I have to meet people due to my work and I don't want to get used to meeting people..
I don't want to be friends with any of people IRL. Because they would want to invade my place, which I hate most.
I feel like I am being polluted by others when I am being around people..
I like people and want to interact, which is probably because I rarely meet people. Going outside for a little and meeting random people is energizing when I do well and terrible when I don't do well, if I don't do well I end up just replaying the interaction in my head over and over for hours trying to pick apart exactly what went wrong.
Usually people say that being around people is draining, for me it's energizing if it's limited to just a few minutes. After that it can become a nightmare.
The real problem for me when I get headaches and am becoming visually unhealthy looking is that people start worrying and trying to help me which makes things worse.