My psychiatrist suspects I have autism? What could I have?

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I hope all this writing doesn't bother you.

I never had problems speaking as a child. I began to speak early, evidently. I never spoke with very many words together though. It just doesn't seem like my child-self person showed many symptoms, other than not being interested in others, or touching people, and how I played with my toys and that I only liked to step on certain places on the ground. But I also have ADHD that is pretty bad. I was and am unorganized, I lose interest in my interest easily. My thoughts are not organized at all.

I am now 13, and a female as well. I am just wondering, I am going to a psychologist for a diagnostic test soon. I cannot speak very well now. It has always seemed to be that I have never been able to think with words. It is as if my thoughts belonged to a caveman. I can only say simple phrases, like what I am writing now. My vocabulary got a lot worse when I turned 8. I don't know what happened.

Anyhowdy, I will describe more things about myself to see what others with more experience and knowledge on people with autism think.

I have always kept my head down at the floor and never liked eye contact if that matters. I think that because of my ADHD, I have always been impulsive, blurting things out. I never conversed much, just said what's on my mind. My mother said as a baby I never liked being touched or picked up. My peers have always thought I was strange and apathetic. I have difficulty understanding sarcasm or figurative language unless I have heard it before. I have never had any actual friends, despite inviting people to my house a few times. I didn't even pay attention to them though. "Always in my own world".

Other people have never made me nervous. These smilies are interesting. But something about being around people makes me feel anxious all the time. Ever since I was little, I think. Also, I have do seem to have an obsessive interest in vegan food and nutrition since two years ago. I spend every moment after school and on the weekends researching things relating to this topic. I don't even really like it. I used to memorize scientific names for dinosaurs when I was five. Ever single pokemon name when I was 8. Now I just memorize digits of license plates.

I never knew much about autism until this month when I began to research it. It seems like since two years ago loud noises are beginning to bother me more, just giving me anxiety. But it isn't that bad... actually I don't know how long this slight anxiety has lasted. My coordination is very bad, but my hand to eye (whatever they call it) coordination is very good. I am a great drawer, even though it seems like my perception is bad. I seem to act like a little kid still, always have been throwing temper tantrums, never accepting help and loving the empty playground. And cookies and I always have to have chocolate milk at lunch. And eat with my blue fork.

Also, if this has to do with anything, whenever my head gets cold, I uncontrollably shake and feel a chill slowly creeping down my spine that lasts one second. I have a very vivid and eccentric imagination also if that is relevant.

Also also, I only drink smoothies for breakfast and lunch. I wish I could have smoothies all day.

Also also also, I believe I have recently begun to hallucinate. I saw someone's face morph right in front of me and only a few other things. But I don't know if I am just tricking myself.

I am just so darn tired of being so confused all the time. Could I maybe have mild autism? Or schizophrenia? I just want to be helped.

What you have discribed definitely sounds a lot like autism. I try to step on only certain places on the floor, I find it hard to process language, I generally look at the floor, I rarely make eye contact, I dislike being touched, I sometimes have difficulty with sarcasm, I hang out in my own world a lot, I get nervous around people, I hate loud noises, my motor coordination isn't the best, I act childish sometimes, I occasionally have autistic meltdowns (commonly confused with tantrums), and I have a very vivid imagination.

I do seem to have mild ADD/ADHD although I don't have a diagnosis, my only notable psychological disorder is autism and yet I can relate to almost everything you have said. In my unprofessional opinion, I'd say you are very likely autistic.

Don't rely on people from the internet to diagnose you. None of us are qualified to diagnose you based off of posts on a forum. You may have autism, or another disorder, or even autism along with another disorder.

I think you write well.

I'm sure your thinking is complex, too.

you sound a lot like me in some ways. i am going through diagnosis right now for autism. my language ability fluctuates throughout my life it seems. it is currently getting worse, I feel. I used to stare at people and now I hate looking people in the eye. I am able to figure out idiom rapidly most of the time but it's never instinctive. I am capable of sarcasm but often miss it in others. I hate sudden noises. They don't hurt me, but I can lose my balance. I feel some noises in my teeth. Thinking about some textures makes me shiver. I have meltdowns when I cannot communicate or when emotionally overloaded. I can be very childish too.

Hallucinations are not a strictly autistic thing, but you could have some sort of comorbid that is causing them. The possibles are too numerous for speculation.

I hope you get some answers soon.

With the exception of hallucinations most of the traits you write about are autistic (and other condition) traits. Problems with eye contact is a well noted autistic trait.