very odd unheathy fixations?

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this is very odd and i know this might be very misunderstood and it might even freak some of you out but this was a problem . i had a gut that lived next door that was a child molester and i hated him of course since hes a petafile. So i became fixated on making fun of him and fixating over him for years about making fun of him since it made me crack up ! it was one of the only things that would make me crack up and role on the floor cracking up!! it got so bad i was accused of being abused by him and that was not the case at all, i fixated about him so much i would draw cartoons of him and stuff and turned him into a mythical villin . my fixation on bashing his name led to people loving me and following my actions to the point they would destroy his house. i would get qwestioned by the police everytime one of my freinds did something to his car ect, my grandma would yell at me for fixating on him for 5 years. i still joke about him but i realized this was not heathy but it was a way for me to laugh since i had 0 sence of humer. proir to this i fixated as a child my neighbor who was a farmer and had a blue light on his porch out in the country. i would fixate on this blue light for hours gazing at it., i also turned him into a fictional person but this was wen i was 7 years old. theese fixations gave me a sence of ease and humer, the blue lights were and still are intreging i have blue lighting in my house and gaze at it. so in conclusion are theese unheathy fixations i had AS or ocd fixations? ocd is done out of fear and they are intrusive and unwanted AS are wanted. but even though i liked them they were not heathy or constructive at all!! so what were they AS or ocd fixations? rememer they were wanted not intrusive! and by no means did i like the petafile nor did i want to do any bodily harm to him just make fun of him. this gained me a legend status among people since i would writte comedy songs about him in public and even the police would drop in to listin to my skill on the guitar and ask for a song about him. eventuly i got tired of people demanding theese songs about him and i stoped and i now focus on songs that come from the soul and mind. so why did i experince theese fixations and were they AS or ocd??????? that is the question

I was obsessed with the penis, when I was 8. I made up chants about it, and grabbed one of my cousin's penis, from time to time.

yeah, sounds AS.

I spent the awkward early-teen years obsessed with gynecology/obstetrics. Try talking to your peers about whether vaginal birth after a cesarean section is a sensible option, and they will generally become quite hostile in "self-defense".

Ocd is an anxiety disorder, so you do a certain action because you're afraid not to. It's usually accompanied with some very convoluted reasoning. You'd have to examine your thought process in the situation.

slikk03, I have similar unhealthy fixations with someone. It's my former best friend.

Around the ages of 12-13 we were very close and inseparable, and had the same intense interests even though she was NT. Anyway at age 14, we started fighting and said and did horrible things to each other. Then we stopped being friends for good.

But I was completely obsessed with her. For the first couple of years, I missed her really badly and kept trying to call her and would leave messages on her Myspace and Facebook. I also had dreams about her frequently, especially around the times of year that were most important to us during our friendship. Now I realize that it's been so many years since we last contacted each other that she isn't even the same person anymore, and neither of us are into the things we liked back when we were preteens. So I don't really miss her anymore.

However, I am still somewhat obsessed with her and I have created a fictional character based on her. I used the song "She'd Rather Be With The DJ" by Hardnox as inspiration. In the song, the DJ is a guy who steals peoples' girlfriends. My character is also called The DJ but she is a female villain who uses dance music to hypnotize people. Her environment and costume are technology-based, which is in contrast to the theme of fantasy in the rest of my imaginary world.

Anyway, I think the initial obsession with this woman was a by-product of my AS, but over the years it has developed into an OCD-type thing. This is because I don't really want to think about her anymore but I'm afraid to move on. It's almost like I'm scared to find out what'll happen if I completely stopped thinking about her...

The world would be a better place if women grabbed hold of our penises more often.

During the 2nd-4th grades, I had a really good friend whom I hung around with a lot. I used to call him on the phone all the time, pestering the sh*t out of his family in the process.

I was obsessed with everything about being skinny, and the word, skinny, when I was 9. Teachers and substitutes would ask me what I wanted to be, when I grew up, and I would answer, "Skinny." Relatives would ask me the same question, and I would also tell them, that I wanted to be skinny, when I grew up. There was a bully at my school, who called me a big, fat liar, once. For weeks and weeks afterward, I kept saying, "Skinny...skinny." to myself. God had different plans for me. He wanted me to be husky, hearty and healthy. I got out of my skinny obsession, by the time that school started up again, in 1984.

i think the point of this thread is getting off of the main topic. the topic is not what all our unhealthy fixations are but instead were do they come from why do we have them and if they are ocd or AS. clearly if there unwanted and you feel like you must do them out of fear their of ocd in origin. i think NTS have fixations just as AS people do. but i think we should realy ask ourselves why do we have them if their unhealthy and pointless? if we do have them we got to get rid of them or were just wasting our time and i think thats an aspies no 1 concern ! !! ! are we wasting our time or are we creating something for ourselvs to project to others as well

my sister got me some ant killer because i had a minor pest problem and i gotta say i wanted to taste it, it had that smell that was all "i could possibly taste wonderful" but i never did it because duh its ant killer dude