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04 Apr 2010, 12:55 am

Have you all ever had the feeling that it was something more than just aspergers? Aspergers explains alot for me but I'm still not satisfied. There is something not right still but I can't put metaphorically put my finger on it. There has to be something more. I feel like we're all descended from some unique tribe or somewhere else. I do not know about you all but I feel this inner urging that I have to go back somewhere and be somewhere. I feel that I have to go home. It is in my inner gut and has nagged at me as long as I could remember. Why do I feel this way?



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04 Apr 2010, 1:11 am

All the time, well, except for that tribe thing. Although I am related to an Indian separatist tribe.
But I do feel a lot slower and have a worse memory than those with AS/ autism. I was really premi though, like my mum didn't even go into labor when I was delivered via cesarean.


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04 Apr 2010, 1:45 am

can't say that i have. AS explained away most of the questions in my life (of course not the ones it created about my future.)

as to feeling like there's some place i'm meant to be, well yes. but i couldn't say if this is an AS thing, as i've known plenty of NT folks who say they've felt the same way all their lives. like there's some place they belong, some original home. many of them have even worked out where it is. they feel drawn to, called to a particular place or country and make it their life's work to get there.


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04 Apr 2010, 1:57 am

I've felt I have something else besides AS and I don't know what it is. My mom says it's all AS but I don't see other aspies having my issues. Then I read on here that some aspies do indeed need help in school and need accommodations. I am one of those aspies then. The other aspies I have seen, they have gone to college or are in college, wasn't in special ed and didn't need help with their school work. It makes me feel so low functioning.



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04 Apr 2010, 6:14 am

I want to go home. It's not my home here.


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04 Apr 2010, 11:40 am

my asperger's, adhd and dypraxia explain a lot but i only ever feel ok when i am on my own for a long period of time. whenever i have contact with the outside world, that feeling of not belonging comes back.



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04 Apr 2010, 2:19 pm

arisu wrote:
can't say that i have. AS explained away most of the questions in my life


^Ditto. Everything I ever needed to know I learned from discovering my neuro-psychiatric disorder. :idea: :?



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07 Apr 2010, 1:09 am

I think that AS explains everything. I get that feeling like I belong somewhere else whenever I'm around other people. When I have been alone for a couple hours I feel fine.



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07 Apr 2010, 1:33 am

For me it's not that I didn't get an answer ... it's more that the answer wasn't what I wanted to hear.

I would much rather have someone tell me how to relate to people better rather than... you can't, good luck, perhaps fake it to make it? I guess in this way I feel as though I still don't have my answer... and still feel incomplete... =s



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07 Apr 2010, 2:02 am

League_Girl wrote:
I've felt I have something else besides AS and I don't know what it is. My mom says it's all AS but I don't see other aspies having my issues. Then I read on here that some aspies do indeed need help in school and need accommodations. I am one of those aspies then. The other aspies I have seen, they have gone to college or are in college, wasn't in special ed and didn't need help with their school work. It makes me feel so low functioning.

I've been/am in both situations. I spent some time in Special Education classes, but then later on I was shoved into honors and AP classes. I ended up going to college with half of my calculus out of the way, only to drop out because of anxiety problems.

It's really confusing. Then again, the doctors initially wanted to give me the classic autism diagnosis. The only reason they couldn't is because my IQ was too high. My mind is a bit like a sponge. It sucks up information, and when you squeeze it comes gushing out in a flood of spoken information on some random topic.


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07 Apr 2010, 2:36 am

CerebralDreamer wrote:
League_Girl wrote:
I've felt I have something else besides AS and I don't know what it is. My mom says it's all AS but I don't see other aspies having my issues. Then I read on here that some aspies do indeed need help in school and need accommodations. I am one of those aspies then. The other aspies I have seen, they have gone to college or are in college, wasn't in special ed and didn't need help with their school work. It makes me feel so low functioning.

I've been/am in both situations. I spent some time in Special Education classes, but then later on I was shoved into honors and AP classes. I ended up going to college with half of my calculus out of the way, only to drop out because of anxiety problems.

It's really confusing. Then again, the doctors initially wanted to give me the classic autism diagnosis. The only reason they couldn't is because my IQ was too high. My mind is a bit like a sponge. It sucks up information, and when you squeeze it comes gushing out in a flood of spoken information on some random topic.



I was kicked out of sewing class a year ago because I had a meltdown caused by my anxiety. I couldn't understand the verbal instructions and I needed to be shown than told. I just got frustrated and melted down.

I have also described in my teens as my mind is like a sponge because it absorb fasts I was into and I remember them. I focus on those details. I don't talk about it much because I realize how arrogant it sounds so I keep it to myself.



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07 Apr 2010, 2:55 am

League_Girl wrote:
I've felt I have something else besides AS and I don't know what it is. My mom says it's all AS but I don't see other aspies having my issues. Then I read on here that some aspies do indeed need help in school and need accommodations. I am one of those aspies then. The other aspies I have seen, they have gone to college or are in college, wasn't in special ed and didn't need help with their school work. It makes me feel so low functioning.

I needed accommodations in school. More than I was getting. I don't seem to understand things right away and my brain chooses what it wants to remember rather than what I need to remember.


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07 Apr 2010, 8:06 am

League_Girl wrote:
CerebralDreamer wrote:
League_Girl wrote:
I've felt I have something else besides AS and I don't know what it is. My mom says it's all AS but I don't see other aspies having my issues. Then I read on here that some aspies do indeed need help in school and need accommodations. I am one of those aspies then. The other aspies I have seen, they have gone to college or are in college, wasn't in special ed and didn't need help with their school work. It makes me feel so low functioning.

I've been/am in both situations. I spent some time in Special Education classes, but then later on I was shoved into honors and AP classes. I ended up going to college with half of my calculus out of the way, only to drop out because of anxiety problems.

It's really confusing. Then again, the doctors initially wanted to give me the classic autism diagnosis. The only reason they couldn't is because my IQ was too high. My mind is a bit like a sponge. It sucks up information, and when you squeeze it comes gushing out in a flood of spoken information on some random topic.



I was kicked out of sewing class a year ago because I had a meltdown caused by my anxiety. I couldn't understand the verbal instructions and I needed to be shown than told. I just got frustrated and melted down.

I have also described in my teens as my mind is like a sponge because it absorb fasts I was into and I remember them. I focus on those details. I don't talk about it much because I realize how arrogant it sounds so I keep it to myself.


League Girl, I know exactly what you mean. I not only need to be shown. I need to do it while being shown. I need it shown to me step by step I think I know what our problem is on this. Most people in our country learn by sight. I do not know about the rest of the world. We learn by touch. Most people learn in a particular way that we can't or have difficulty learning by.



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07 Apr 2010, 8:42 am

cubedemon6073 wrote:
League_Girl wrote:
CerebralDreamer wrote:
League_Girl wrote:
I've felt I have something else besides AS and I don't know what it is. My mom says it's all AS but I don't see other aspies having my issues. Then I read on here that some aspies do indeed need help in school and need accommodations. I am one of those aspies then. The other aspies I have seen, they have gone to college or are in college, wasn't in special ed and didn't need help with their school work. It makes me feel so low functioning.

I've been/am in both situations. I spent some time in Special Education classes, but then later on I was shoved into honors and AP classes. I ended up going to college with half of my calculus out of the way, only to drop out because of anxiety problems.

It's really confusing. Then again, the doctors initially wanted to give me the classic autism diagnosis. The only reason they couldn't is because my IQ was too high. My mind is a bit like a sponge. It sucks up information, and when you squeeze it comes gushing out in a flood of spoken information on some random topic.



I was kicked out of sewing class a year ago because I had a meltdown caused by my anxiety. I couldn't understand the verbal instructions and I needed to be shown than told. I just got frustrated and melted down.

I have also described in my teens as my mind is like a sponge because it absorb fasts I was into and I remember them. I focus on those details. I don't talk about it much because I realize how arrogant it sounds so I keep it to myself.


League Girl, I know exactly what you mean. I not only need to be shown. I need to do it while being shown. I need it shown to me step by step I think I know what our problem is on this. Most people in our country learn by sight. I do not know about the rest of the world. We learn by touch. Most people learn in a particular way that we can't or have difficulty learning by.



Yes I exactly have that problem. I think that's what they call learning difficulties and why my mom says it's part of my AS. She says it effects my learning.



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07 Apr 2010, 9:00 am

Interesting comparison about soaking up information "like a sponge." I had never thought about it that way before. However, my manager used that exact phrase when going over my review last year. Apparently it's more obvious to others than it is to me.

AS would explain many things about me, but not everything. I'd guess that I'm subclinical since I've never really had issues with meltdowns or being significantly handicapped in typical AS fashion (if there is such a thing). They say that we are in no position to judge these sorts of things, though; others see it better.


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