PunkyKat wrote:
My parents suspect I may be bipolar because my mood changes at the drop of a hat for supposedly no apparent reason. I just have an extreme low, never the extreme high of bipolar. I've never felt true happiness.
Well you definitely don't have bipolar disorder then. You might have major depressive disorder, or some other form of depression. If it really effects your life, I'd suggest going to a therapist. It's not as bad as it sounds (I just started therapy, and believe, me I used to be the epitome of anti-shrink), and it could probably help you out.
With bipolar, it's not that moods change abruptly (though they do), it's that you'll go for long periods of time in either a manic or a depressive state. You'll wake up one morning and life is just not worth living, and then two weeks later you suddenly can't sleep, you're off the wall, you're more excited than you've ever been and you just don't know what to do with yourself so you decide to remodel your house in the middle of the night, etc.
I've tried lots of antidepresents and they didn't do anything or jsut made it worse. I wish these so called "therapists" would actualy try to get to the root of the depression which I've told them over and over but want to hand out pills. One said I was bipolar as soon as he walked in the room and threatned to comit me if I wouldn't take abilify. If these therepists actualy want me to shadow a vet, they should help me do it. Find someone who actualy is willing to let me shadow them and help me arrange everything.
My phycatrist back in Ohio who is very hesitant to hand out perscriptions says I don't fit the descrption for bipolar because I'm not hyper sexual. Perhaps he is right. I've never felt true happiness and remember wanting to die as young as three.