does anybody feel like....

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...I feel like my life is a collage of bad experiences and memories that dont add up to equal a real person

In fact I feel like I am not.

I wake up everyday asking myself "who the f**k am I?" "Where am I?" "What am I doing?" I have an idea, but it still doesnt make sense.

life has controlled me drifting me to me where I am.

seems familiar

Are you suggesting a "real person" should have a different collection of memories and experiences? I do not know why one person's "fate" or whatever can be so different from another's, but I do not believe either person is any more or less real than the other.



When I compare myself to the expectations other people seem to have, I might say the same. However, nobody has ever shown me everybody else's right to set standards for me to have to meet.



I have more answers for myself than you seem to have for yourself, and maybe that is simply because I am older now, but I definitely do share your "What is this (or 'What am I') really all about?" kind of question.



That happened to me for the first 30-plus years of my life, but then I altogether stopped trying to jump through hoops set in place by other people.

The only way to recover from spells of existential crisis is, I'm sorry to say, to just keep your body and mind busy doing some intense, very involving activities.

This reminds me of the Talking Heads song.

Once in a lifetime? yeah!

Because of that exact sentiment i quited everything many years ago
had an excellent career as a programmer
threw that away with no regrets
disconnected from my family and friends completely
just couldn't take it any more
i'd rather waste all my talents and die alone penniless than take part in such a phony,loveless, soulless society

Thanks, that's made me feel better, too. About my plans.

I think, therefore I am.

The rest you pretty much have to figure out for yourself - but I'm sure there's *something* you enjoy doing.

When I was growing up and occasionally now as an adult, I have trouble realizing my own existence. When I was a child, I always wanted to have my picture taken, because I had a sense that I wasn't actually here. Even as an adult, I feel when I am in a crowd, that I am ghost or that I am in a different dimension and no one is fully aware that I am there.

I know that this seems like it's off the OP's topic, but it's the same, really. When I look at my experiences, I am looking at them as if they didn't really happen to someone who didn't really exist. So, I haven't been able to relate them to where I was going in my life.

I feel the same!

Ummmmm, OK, point by point:

I feel like my life is a collage of bad experiences and memories that dont add up to equal a real person.
Real people have lots of bad experiences and memories but they also have good ones. Could it be that your memory is selective and you're only remembering the bad bits?

In fact I feel like I am not.
I'm sure that you are a real person and, presumably, so are the others who replied to you.

I wake up everyday asking myself "who the f**k am I?" "Where am I?" "What am I doing?" I have an idea, but it still doesn't make sense.
You're a Wrong Planet member with AS and, right now, you're reading this. By training I'm an engineer and not a philosopher so someone else will have to help out here.

Life has controlled me drifting me to me where I am.
Yep, me too. Exciting isn't it?

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