lotuspuppy wrote:
How many people out there consider themselves to have "mild" Aspergers? I was diagnosed early in life, and no matter what form I had then, I certainly have a milder form now. I am in college now, and while I still struggle with my peers, I do have meaningful interactions off campus. I also have a pretty technical job my boss respects me for, and I am told my company's clients all think I am wonderful, too.
I guess I would call myself that, though I am not diagnosed (I first suspected that I had AS when I was 54, and there is nothing much to be gained by getting a diagnosis). I am married and have a technical job (IT, number crunching). But I am more comfortable with teenagers or people with psychological conditions than I am with many NT adults, especially those "no nonsense, successful" NT adults. I was depressed and anxious in my teens and early twenties, but fortunately had good intervention and support in my early twenties, and continue to have good support even in my 50s. I had trouble coping emotionally at university, and took many years longer than necessary to finish my degrees, despite having the academic marks to qualify for studying medicine.
lotuspuppy wrote:
I also have some traits that aren't as present in me as with other Aspies. I don't mind multitasking, nor interruptions from a task. I'd prefer no interruptions, but the world's too dynamic to ask for that. I can also "read" some people, even to the point of attempting manipulation. My psychiatrist even said most people would not suspect I was autistic, but rather just quirky.
So who else is in that boat?
Even now, I am not good at multi-tasking, planning, or handling interruptions. I have difficulty understanding my own feelings, or knowing why I have them or what to do about them. I do not understand how to show social affection (like hugs or social kisses - I just don't understand how people know when to spontaneously hug or kiss others in social situations - it is all totally foreign to me, I just don't know what the signs are). On the other hand, I have a very well-paid job and a family, although I spend a lot of time alone in my study in the evenings and on weekends, where it is peaceful and quiet. I have some sensory sensitivity issues, so the solitude helps that as well as providing calmness. I sometimes think my whole life is a search for peace and calm.
I can maintain eye contact, although that really varies. If the other person shows little emotion (e.g. poker face) then I am OK. But if they are emotionally expressive, then it is too overloading to make eye contact for more than fleeting glimpses. I have a mild sensitivity to bright light (I leave the fluorescent lights in my office switched off, preferring the half-light of my windows and the large bright computer screen - 24"), and a sensitivity to sounds (both loud, high-pitched sounds, and especially to eating or drinking sounds), but I don't mind our local shopping mall if I have something to buy. I hate loud cars, motor bikes going past, and loud live music in public places.
But I would call myself mild, because it never even occurred to me that I might have AS, until I did Simon Baron-Cohen's AQ Test on a whim and scored above the cut-off for AS - at the age of 54. That explained a lot of things.