Why do you find it hard to make and keep friends

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I'm pretty much isloated. I don't bother much with friends because mixing and maintaining friendships causes me too much anxiety. I can't figure out why this is. Apart from sensory overload or not trusting someones motives when they want to be your friend why do you avoid socialising and friendships?

Partly I feel people are getting under my skin and I'm getting under theirs and I back off. Would be interested to hear how anyone else feels about realtionships.

I annoy people.

I'm a creature of habit, and I'm too set, in my own ways.

There aren't that many people I want to be friends with.

When I do meet someone I actually like and admire and can enjoy hanging out with, I have no trouble getting to know them - usually we share some obsessive interest. Most humans bore me because they are shallow and stupid and I have no interest socializing with idiots, it wastes my time and gets on my nerves. So my true friends are few and far between and I have no problem with that. That's what hobbies are for.

I expect too much from friendship and am easily disappointed. I don't want to be friends with no two faced liar. What ends my friendships is that sort of thing. Underhanded treachery, two facedness, lies, and drama.

I like people for the most part, and they seem to like me. My problem is that I just can't put in the effort required to maintain an actual friendship. I've tried, and it just left me physically and emotionally drained.

People think I'm weird and vice versa.

I usually don't like mingling with people, because I don't get them. I can fake my way through it, but I don't have the energy to keep it up and it becomes a strain. I'll also feel patronized, especially if they know anything about my background. Their efforts feel contrived in this case, because it is.

The only reason I have been able to come up with that makes any sense is pretty simple.

I don't know how to "make" friends. Some have tried to be friends with me, but I don't know how to maintain the relationship. I don't call people to "chat." I don't visit people just to visit them. I always have a reason or agenda. Something I need to talk to them about. Other than that, I never contact or see people. I think because of that they may think, "what does he want now?" and eventually stop responding.

I don't know, because whatever the reason is, they don't tell me, and I don't (I guess), care enough to ask? Don't know. I just live with it and don't really worry about it much.

I have absolutely no idea on how to start a conversation, and I also don't know how to talk about something I'm not interested in, but that is an interest to most teenage girls (nail polish, make up, boys, etc.). Besides, it's really stressful for me because I don't know what is expected of me in a friendship, and when I was little, my parents told me that I used to have some friends, who laughed at whatever I said, making fun of it, but that since I had been told that laughter was good, and it was a way of showing that someone liked something, I thought they laughed because they liked me. Now, I'm sincerely not so sure, and I find it really hard to trust someone besides my parents, my dog and my grandmother. Not even my brother.

Besides, I don't know how to keep a relationship going. I don't like to get on messenger just to talk about random things. If I talk, it's because I have something to say, if not, I won't talk. I won't go out with others because I don't feel the need to, and I don't see the reason. Also, I don't call people to just talk about random things. At school, other students and teachers thought I was mute until we started seeing the Universe topic in Science. While we saw that topic, no one could shut me up. Afterwards, I became silent again.

I often end up losing desire to keep in contact with them. For some reason, people are rarely worth it. I usually end up ignoring them and neglecting keeping in touch, and if they point it out, I ignore that, and the friendship thus ends.

I don't know what it takes to keep a friend.

Can't stand empty promises. Like "we'll hang out soon" or "you mean a lot to me" because in the end they have no time for me even when they are whining about being bored.